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I have a name/word. It has 5 parts. Origin/Words/Numbers/Letters/Sound.
Origin Aspect - I started dating a girl named Rachel who i met in the fall of 2011 at college in Astronomy class. Because of the subject matter of the class and the song "my girl, by the tempations" i started callign Rachel "Sunshine".
We broke up that following summer and to fill the hole in my heart i started seeking god and wrestling with theolgy. After a couple years i realized my love for rachel wasnt going away and decided to devote 14 years of labor in the seeking god and wrestling with theology over rachel to see what would happen. I started seeing myself as a twin of jacob. not literally, but poetically. (my name thomas, means twin, and jacob is a twin)
at year 11, i coined the name Shinesun to reflect how i felt about rachel after years of seperation and longing and dreaming of her. Sunshine was a preservered name to contain my feelings and love and memories of her when we were together and she loved me. With the name Shinesun, i noticed the name Shineson and decided to make this a personal name for jesus christ.
At year 14, i then stated to form the sunshine tree(which is the word aspect) and within a few days i formed it. But i needed a word to contain and represent the whole tree at once. So with the inspiration of the name YHVH without vowels, i dropped the vowels of Shinesun/Shineson to form SHNSN......the other aspects are quite large so ill post them in another response
Word Aspect
This is the number aspect calculating gemetria - i used shin nun samech final nun to calculate
The letter aspect of SHNSN -
In hebrew to spell SHNSN the letters are Shin Nun Samech Final Nun. In kabbalistic tradition this tells a story.
n Kabbalistic tradition, the letters of the Hebrew alphabet are not merely phonetic signs—they are seen as primordial spiritual forces, the "building blocks" of creation. When read as a sequence, the letters Shin, Nun, Samech, and Final Nun (ש–נ–ס–ן) are understood to tell a story of the soul's journey from its divine origin through exile and finally to redemption.
The Sound Aspect -
When you meditate on SHNSN it starts to sound/blend like the word Ascension. Ascending your thoughts and mind is the whole point of meditation so SHNSN can be used as a mantra
i had the name sunshine for 14 years then flipped it to shinesun. Discovered shineson as a homophone. Found the words and made the tree. Then to bind all the words together i dropped the vowels like yhvh to make shnsn. Then i translated to hebrew to do gemetria and discovered the letter story. I did gemetria. Then while meditating on shnsn i discovered it sounded like ascenion
Originally I used the name Sunshine for rachel instead of baby or sweetheart. After we broke up, i wouldnt call any future girlfriends Sunshine. Over time as I discovered I still loved Rachel, throughout the 14 years the word Sunshine became an emotionally charged word for me, and even sacred to me. So when I wanted to bind up the memory of us together vs the state of us not being together I coined the name Shinesun to reflect her today as my ex, and Sunshine as her when she was mine.
In my wrestling with theology, i believed in jesus, so when i saw the word Shineson sounding like Shinesun, i made it a personal name for Jesus.
SHNSN is Shinesun/Shineson without the vowels
One thing I have been reflecting on....
Could SHNSN be my white stone promised to the Overcomers in the book of Revelations?
A white stone could be broken into parts and split between parties. Each party had a piece to fit into others to prove a intimate bond between them. There is 4 parts here. Sunshine (Rachel) / Shineson (Me) / Shineson (Jesus) / SHNSN (YHVH)....
Maybe this denotes a connection/bond between us.
A white stone is cast to denote an acquitalll. Could SHNSN be a sign to ease my self doubts and when I judge myself too harshly?
A white stone can be a victory token, maybe a sign that my 14 year wrestling match is completed (Jacob and Rachel cycle)
A white stone can be an invitation to a feast, maybe the wedding feast of the lamb?
A white stone was used as an urim and thum to determine Gods will. I can use SHNSN as a mantra (it can blend with the word Ascencion). to meditate and ascend my mind to hear God
Typo the 4 part section i put Shineson is both me and jesus.
I ment Shinesun (me) / Shineson (Jesus)
Let me set the Story. 14 years ago, I'm in my early 20's. 21/22 yrs old. At that time, I have a "general" belief in Jesus and God, but not deep enough to search him or read the bible. Just a empty faith. My babysitter when I was a toddler, took me to church. I attended Awana's as a pre-teen/young boy. And in high school I attended a church with a girl, because I had a crush on her and her parents invited me to start going to church with them. Those parents even set up a "fellowship group", that got us high schoolers together at hangout spot. It had good Christian intentions, and at times there was Christian messages at the group, but it was mostly a hangout spot for kids supervised by parents. Then after high school, I attended an Apostolic Church for a year with my dad. So I was predisposed to the Lord, but I was young and my heart wasn't committed/fully invested. I believed, but I lacked "Depth".
In the college school year of 2011-2012 I start dating a Girl named Rachel. While dating, I have a vision. This vision I forget about until about 6-8 months later when I have my 2nd experience that unlocks the memory of this vision. So its like a flashback memory. But the memory came to me so vividly, that I remember details about this vision, as if I lived it and actually experienced it.
So the first experience/vision.....I visited my father one weekend from college. While staying at his house overnight, I get up to use the bathroom. When i finish and pass my dad in the living room. (He slept on the couch), he was awake and told me to sit next to him. He then explained to me he wasn't my father, but he was really Gabriel. He placed his hand on my forehead. Immediately air rushed into my lungs and i sneezed with my mouth. At the same time, I felt the sensation of warm water being poured over me. I was then pulled out of my body into a separate "realm" that was above. This realm was pure black. Out of the blackness a Silvery/Blue face appears, and says "Thomas, I swear by my great name you are mine". He then asks me several times what I want, and I keep changing my answer. First it was to "live lives", then it was "for my mother to have another child. Then it was "just to be happy", then it was "to get out of the military", then finally I answered "I wanted to marry Rachel". I was sent off to bed, and as I laid in bed I heard a voice say to me, "My dad was going to die".....so I pleaded with the voice and said "Give my dad, mercy" (meaning his soul). [side note, 14 years later. he is still alive (but his life collapsed around him and changed majorly and he is doing really good now)] I fell asleep and forgot about this vision until my 2nd experience happened. I place this vision happening just before the Holiday Season 2011. I interpret this as a baptism of water and spirit. All these wishes centered around one thing (looking back). I basically wished for "Life"
3 Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. 4 Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born? 5 Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. 6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. 7 Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again. 8 The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one that is born of the Spirit.
Fast forward to Summer break. Rachel and I had broken up at the end of the school year, and i wasn't dealing with my emotions properly. I buried them, refusing to think about the pain and heartbreak. I started a job as a flagger for the oil and gas industry and we had plenty of downtime. Enough downtime where I had hours and hours to just sit and think. During this time my thoughts began to wander towards God, and missing not having a girlfriend. So I decide to pick up the Bible and read it at work. I read the Bible from cover to cover in 3 months for the first time on my own. During the timeframe I was power-reading the bible for the first time. I was sitting with a group of friends hanging out one day. When all of a sudden, i have the thought that God himself is going to smite me dead on the spot. This feelings of utter terror washes over me, and I am paralyzed with fear. The only thing I can do, is start crying loudly in front of everybody (seemingly random to everybody) and start praying in Glossolalia. (something I learned to do by only hearing my Dad do it once, Apostolics do it). While crying and praying in tongues in front of my friends, I felt the feeling and emotion of terror wash away from me, to be replaced with the feeling of Peace and Comfort and Reassurance. As I felt this way, my mind took control of itself. Thoughts were planted into my brain forcefully, and at the same time I heard a voice accompany them. This voice wasn't a whisper. It was loud and audible to me. The thoughts and the voice said "Thomas, You are the lonely sparrow, but I have given you wings, oh what mighty wings they are, spread them and fly." The feeling and voice disappeared and my mind relaxed, and I was left with my friends staring at me wondering what just happened.
Today, I equate this experience with Solomon's verse "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom". …9Instruct a wise man, and he will be wiser still; teach a righteous man, and he will increase his learning. 10The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. 11For through wisdom your days will be multiplied, and years will be added to your life.…
About another 4-5 months after the "Fear of the Lord Experience". I am reskimming the New Testament. I come across this verse where Jesus commands the Rich man to give away all his possessions and follow him. I took this seriously. Seriously enough to get a hold of a local church and give all my possessions away. ALL MY CLOTHES. I gave away all my electronics. EVERYTHING, but my vehicle, which was owned by my dad. I even called my boss and quit my easy flagging job. I literally owned nothing but my Dad's vehicle, my bed, my pillow, my blanket, the clothes on my back, and the socks and shoes on my feet. I still had a little bit of money in my bank account, not much. Less than a few hundred dollars, but if I had thought about it at the time, I probably would've emptied my bank account too, but that thought didn't cross my mind. At the time, I believed I was taking a leap of faith that God would provide for me. …
20“All these I have kept,” said the young man. “What do I still lack?” 21 Jesus told him, “If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow Me.” 22When the young man heard this, he went away in sorrow, because he had great wealth.…
My Dad catching wind of this, takes me to the hospital. I am diagnosed with Schizoaffective-Bipolar Type 2. Schizophrenia runs on my mothers side of the family. My grandmother had it, and my mother had it so bad, my parents were forced to divorce when i was age 3 for my safety concerns as a child. I interpret this moment of my life as "denying myself, and taking up my cross (schizophrenia).
24 Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life[a] will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul?
I feel as if I "lost my life" for his sake, when the oath was given to me "I swear by my great name you are mine". Because in the following year that followed that oath, i lost my position at ROTC in college, lost my girlfriend, dropped out of college, kicked out of the National Guard, lost my ambition and then I gave away everything i had to a church, and diagnosed with a mental illness that ran in the family. I effectively "lost" my current life. Now it has been around 14 years since those 3 experiences. A major reason why I chose to seek god during my time as a flagger, was to address my loneliness and the emptiness I felt over the breakup with Rachel. While dating Rachel, instead of the pet names "baby" or "sweetheart". I choose the name "Sunshine" to call Rachel. And I used that name pretty much exclusively, and for her only. Even years later, when I dated other girls. I always reserved that name for her. Even though the emptiness and pain didn't completely go away after we broke up, I attempted to move on and date other girls. But as time and the years passed, i kept finding that I still loved Rachel. And over these past 14 years, I have never stopped wrestling with Theology and my internal Thoughts and feelings to seek and find God. I settled into this "wrestling mindset" and even saw myself as a Biblical Jacob Archetype (once I realized the love for Rachel would never go away), wrestling with God.
Origin Aspect - I started dating a girl named Rachel who i met in the fall of 2011 at college in Astronomy class. Because of the subject matter of the class and the song "my girl, by the tempations" i started callign Rachel "Sunshine".
We broke up that following summer and to fill the hole in my heart i started seeking god and wrestling with theolgy. After a couple years i realized my love for rachel wasnt going away and decided to devote 14 years of labor in the seeking god and wrestling with theology over rachel to see what would happen. I started seeing myself as a twin of jacob. not literally, but poetically. (my name thomas, means twin, and jacob is a twin)
at year 11, i coined the name Shinesun to reflect how i felt about rachel after years of seperation and longing and dreaming of her. Sunshine was a preservered name to contain my feelings and love and memories of her when we were together and she loved me. With the name Shinesun, i noticed the name Shineson and decided to make this a personal name for jesus christ.
At year 14, i then stated to form the sunshine tree(which is the word aspect) and within a few days i formed it. But i needed a word to contain and represent the whole tree at once. So with the inspiration of the name YHVH without vowels, i dropped the vowels of Shinesun/Shineson to form SHNSN......the other aspects are quite large so ill post them in another response
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Word Aspect
| Seed: Sunshine (Nickname for Rachel) | ||
| Growth Time: 14+ years (Fall 2011) | ||
| Sunlight: Shaymin (Gratitude Pokemon) | Purifies Air and Nature/Fauna/Floura | Pokemon |
| Rain/Water: Suicune | Purifies Water and Nature, Brings North Wind | Pokemon |
| Bird: Sushson | Sunshine Soldier (SU-SH-SO) | Thomas |
| Nest: Shinesun | Thomas | |
| Taproot | ||
| Shineson | Personal Name for Jesus Christ | Thomas |
| Roots | ||
| Shensen | New Spring/new beggining | Japanese |
| Shin-un | Divine Luck / Providence | Japanese |
| Xin-Sheng | Rebirth/new life | mandarin chinese |
| Shinzhen | Deeply True/Orginal Truth | Chinese |
| Shonin | Witness | Japanese |
| Shin-shon | True Intent/True Feeling | Japanese |
| Shin-shun | New Year/New Spring | Japanese |
| Shin-sho | True Form/Original nature | |
| Zhen-Shen | True Spirit/Genuine Spirit | Mandarin |
| Shisun | To Bestow/To Give | Chinese |
| Shosin | Beginners Mind/Pure Intent | Japanese |
| Shishin | Private Heart | Japanese |
| Shayan | Worthy/Deserving | Persian/Urdu |
| Sensen | To Breathe/be in brotherhood | Anicent Egyptian |
| Shoushin | Promotion/Rise in Rank | Japanese |
| Shishin | Guiding principle/needle/compass | Japanese |
| Trunk | ||
| Shinseon | Ascended Immortal | Korean |
| zenshin | Good God | Japanese |
| Shinsun | Divine/Immortal | Korean |
| Sonsin | Pious Believer/Good Faith | Korean |
| Shang Tsung | Temple/Risen Elder - Honored Ancestor - Esteemed Patriarch | Mortal Kombat / Chinese |
| Sensei | One born before/Sage of the Age | Japanese/Chinese |
| Shinsen | Divine/Fresh | Japanese |
| Shinzen | Presence of God/Before God | Japanese |
| Shim-Shon | Like the sun/sun child | Hebrew |
| Shin-son | Descendant of the Gods | Japanese |
| Shen-Xian | Immortals | Chinese |
| Shenson | eternal protection | Egyptian |
| San-sha | Three People/The third person | japanese |
| Shan-sa | Small Son/Sunlike | Arabic |
| Shannon | Wise one/old river | Gaelic/Irish |
| Shekhin | Divine Presence/Settling | Hebrew |
| Shonin | Eternal Identiy or Legacy that continues | Japanese |
| Shahan | To bow or settle | Hebrew |
| Shuson | Tranquility/Peace | Hybrid? |
| Branches | ||
| Shan-Shui | Mountain-Water | Chinese |
| Shanzhen | Mountain Truth | |
| Shen-Shan | Sacred Mountain | Chinese |
| Shanjin | Mountain Gold | Chinese |
| Sunsan | Ancestral Mountain | Korean |
| Xun-Shan | Mountain Patrol | Chinese |
| Shanshen | Mountain Spirit | Chinese |
| Shanshin | Mountain God | Korean |
| Shin-sha | Shrine/Sacred Place | Japanese |
| Shin-Shu | Divine Land | Japanese |
| Shan-lin | Mountain Forest | Japanese |
| Shin-rin | Forest Bathing | Japanese |
| Shilin | Stone Forest | Chinese |
| Shoushan | To guard the mountain | Mandarin |
| Leaves | ||
| Zanshin | Remaining MInd/Lingering Spirit | Japanese |
| Shizen | naturalness/spontaniety | Japanese |
| Shin-Zhen | Earnestlessly | mandarin chinese |
| Shinsin | Mind and Body as one | Japanese |
| Shinson | Mindfulness/Keep in one's heart | Japanese |
| Shen Shen | Deep and Profound / Deep Thinker | mandarin chinese |
| Zenshin | Forward Progress/WholeBody | Japanese |
| Sonsin | Sincere Heart | Korean |
| Shinsui | Adoration/Devotion | Japanese |
| Shanjin | Great Trust | Japanese |
| Sanson | refers to Strength of Samson | French |
| Senshin | Devotion/Purification of Mind | Japanese |
| Sun-sho | To Praise/To Admire | Japanese |
| Sen-sha | Selection/Choice | Japanese |
| San-Shi | To think deeply | Japanese |
| shin-si | Earnest/Sincere | |
| Shin-sa | Gentleman/High Character | |
| Sashin | Truth/Heart | japanese/Sanskrit Roots |
| Senson | Truth Hearing | Scandinavian/Old Norse |
| Shimon | To Hear/He who has been heard | Hebrew |
| Sen-se | To feel/Percieve | Latin |
| Shanan | To be Tranquil/Quiet | Hebrew/Arabic |
| Sensin | To sense/to percieve | Germanic/Old English |
| Sunsun | To Polish/To refine |
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| Shenin | Sharpened/Keen | Hebrew/Aramic |
| Sensen | To Breathe/To Fratenize/Associate | Ancient Egyptian |
| Shusin | To Transport/To Carry | Chinese |
| Shusin | To refine soul or practice quiet reflection | Chinese/Japanese |
| Shonsin | Pious Believer / deep faith | korean |
| Shusin | Correspondence or communication at a distance | Japanese |
| Shusan | To gather or repair | Hebrew/Aramiac |
| Flowers | ||
| Shinzen | Repeat/Sharpen | Hebrew |
| Shoshana | Lily/Rose | Hebrew |
| Shanshan | Precious Coral / Jade | mandarin chinese |
| Shanshan | Gleaming/Brilliant | mandarin chinese |
| Shanshan | Glistening/Elegeant/Shimmering | Chinese |
| Shunsun | Smooth/Prosperously | Chinese |
| Shonan | Radiant Show | |
| Shan-Shan | Glistening/Sparkling/Flickering | mandarin chinese |
| Shin-so | A small token/Gift | Japanese |
| Sun-shi | Bright Clear omen | Japanese |
| Shin-sha | Humble Thanks | Japanese |
| Shen-Su | Followers/Successors | Egyption |
| Shasan | Ruling/Decree/Command | Sanskirt |
| san-so | Health/Purity | Esperanto |
| san-sa | Holy | Spanish/latin resonance |
| Sen-sa | Perciption/Sensory | Italian/Latin |
| Shensa | Shemesh/Sun | Hebrew/Aramaic |
| Shanan | Sharpening/Whetting | Sanskirt |
| Sunsheen | Brightness/Splendor | Archaic English |
| Shansun | Palm Branch/Stem | Hebrew |
| Shinan | Countless/Angelic Host | Hebrew |
| Shosen | Bright Selection | Japanese |
| Shusen | Season of clear water | Japanese |
| Fruit | ||
| Chanson | song | French |
| Sanshin | 3 stringed instrument called "voice of the deities" | Okinawan |
| Sonson | Resoncance/Sounding | Spanish |
| Son-sen | The Sounding | Latin/Japanese Hyrbird |
| Shanshan | Ringing of Bells | japanese/chinese |
| Shan-su | To be Praised/to Shine | japanese |
| Son-shi | Grandson/Descendant | Hebrew/sanksirt |
| Shusun | Whispering/Rustling | Slavic Root |
| Shonin | To Shine/To Gleam | Hebrew/Yiddish |
| Shingon | True Word/Mantra | Japanese |
| Shenin | Reiterating | Hebrew |
| SonSon | Sing-Song | Spanish/Latin |
| Shin-sei | Sacred Sound | Japanese |
| Shasun | Joy/Exultation | Hebrew/Aramaic |
| Shusan | To Rest/Settle | Ancient Hebrew |
| Honorable Mentions | ||
| Sphinx | Riddle/hidden knowledge | Egypt |
| Shenron | Dragon who grants wishes | DragonBall Z |
| Samson | Judge/Sun-Man | Hebrew |
| Sebastian | Venerable / Soverign | |
| Uncategorized | ||
| Samsani | To fully tell or to relate | Sanskrati |
| Shin-un | moving the heart - deeply touched | japanese |
| sun-un | good word / sacred promise | Korean |
| San-Shin | Mountain God | japanese |
| Shimon | To be heard / god has heard | hebrew |
| Shanshan | to be bright radiant/sparkling | chinese |
| Sensus | faculty of feeling/percieving/seeing | Latin |
| Shansun | Clear/pure water | Arabic |
| shin-en | deep, profound, mysterious | japanese |
| San-Sheng | 3 lives | Mandarin |
| Sunsan | Gift from Heaven | Korean |
| Shuh-Shin | Devotioin/Attached Heart | Japanese |
| Sensen | Lineage/Ancestory | Japanese |
| Shunsun | To follow/obedient | Chinese |
| Shanton | Peaceful/Calm | Sanskrit |
| Shalin | Praiseworthy/Modest | Sanskrit |
| Sonson | in a stream / continously | Japanese |
| Sunsheen | Brightness of the sun | Old English |
| Shambhala | Hidden Kingdom | Sanskrit/Tibetian |
| Sushan | Well Settled / Deep Peace | Sanskrit/Pali |
| Shanshan | Slow,Leisurely, Gracefuly | Chinese |
| Sheshonq | Light of life/ Pharoahs | Ancient Egpytian |
| Sansa | Praise/Blessing/invocations | Sanskrit |
| Shinsou | Japanese | |
| Shenzhou | Divine Vessel | Chinese |
| Shinnen | belief/faith/conviction | Japanese |
| Shin’sei | Rebirth/Regeneration | Japanese |
| Shanshou | Good Guardian | Chinese |
| Sunsu | Purity | Korean |
| Shensheng | Sacred, Holy, Divine | Mandarain Chinese |
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This is the number aspect calculating gemetria - i used shin nun samech final nun to calculate
| Calculations of SHNSN | ||
| Number | System | Meaning / Association |
| 12 | I Ching / Hexagram | חָבַב - to love / cherish |
| 14 | KFQ Kabbalah | אוהב — loves / lover / friend (m.s.) דָּוִד - David |
| 18 | Ogham | יאהב — he will love |
| 19 | Aiq Bekar,Mispar Katan | Beloved אהובה |
| 20 | Pythagorean (Full Reduction) | Resh = Head / Chief / Leader / New Beginning |
| 21 | Chaldean, Katan | Ehyeh = “I AM” (Exodus 3:14) |
| 22 | Anbam | חביב - Beloved / Dear |
| 24 | Septenary, Reverse Chaldean | Union (איגוד) |
| 25 | Reverse Pythagoran | האחוה – the brotherhood / fraternity / ואיוב - Job, |
| 28 | Hebrew Atbash | In the Lord (ביהוה) |
| 30 | Keypad | הבוטח – the one who trusts / לרחל - Judah |
| 38 | Younger Futhark | to love, לֶאֱהֹב / הַזְּכוּ the righteous ones / the pure ones |
| 38 | SNSN (Reverse Greek Ordinal) | Abel, the son of Adam - Ἅβελ |
| 41 | SXNSN (Revese Greek Ordinal) | taking, accepting - λαβή |
| 42 | ALW Kabbalah | אלוה — God / deity |
| 49 | Mispar Perek | דמה — blood / resemble |
| 52 | Elder Futhark | אלוהי — my God , אליהו — Elijah |
| 56 | SHNSN (Reverse Greek Ordinal) | a garment, article of clothing - εἷμα |
| 61 | Reverse Ordinal | אדנו (Our Lord) |
| 62 | SNSN (Greek Ordinal) | bird's nest - καλιά |
| 64 | Mispar Siduri | לידידו — to his beloved / friend |
| 69 | SHNSN (Greek Ordinal) | the best or most fitting time - ἀκμή |
| 70 | Latin Cabala | לגאול: To redeem |
| 72 | Albam | To God (לאלוה) |
| 74 | English Ordinal | Jesus / Messiah / Cross / Gospel |
| 75 | Hebrew Extended Ordinal | מהודך From your majesty / splendor |
| 75 | Akbaz | הבחין Noticed / Distinguished |
| 79 | Tibetan | מבטחך — your trust / your security |
| 81 | Trigrammaton Qabalah | כסא — throne |
| 84 | SXNSN (Greek Ordinal) | δύο - two |
| 85 | HaPerati | אחמול — I will have compassion |
| 88 | Azbaf | באלהים (B'Elohim): In God / With God. |
| 90 | Atbah | מלך — king |
| 101 | Afba | מיכאל (Michael) מלוכה Kingship / Royalty כסאך Your throne. |
| 108 | Atbash-Avgad | מנהיג — leader |
| 117 | Aybas | אלוףChief / Officer / Champion |
| 119 | Alphanumeric Qabbala (AQ) | אעלוזה – I will rejoice / exult |
| 121 | Enochian Aleister Crowley | הלולים — praises / songs of praise |
| 146 | Akhas Beta | the angels-המלאכים / הצאן the flock (sheep/goats) |
| 170 | Ofanim | קנך - your nest, סלעי - my rock, יפיע - shines forth / will shine |
| 175 | Polybius Square Standard | המציל — the one who saves / rescues |
| 204 | Francis Bacon (Capitals) | (צדיק) Righteous One , לְחַיֵּי עוֹלָם - To Everlasting Life |
| 220 | Asban | האדירThe Mighty One |
| 226 | NAEQ6 | הגיבור (Hagibor): The hero / The mighty one. |
| 228 | Arabic Abjad | ברוך — blessed בכור — firstborn |
| 232 | Mispar Neelam | Let there be Light (יהי אור) |
| 239 | Prime Method | (Captain) קפטן |
| 249 | Satanic | Will bless, i will have compassion |
| 268 | Agrippa | לרחל (“to Rachel”), / רחליך - Your Rachel / מבורך blessed / איראנו - I will see him |
| 308 | Kabbalistic English Gematria | And their songs (וזמריהם) |
| 366 | Reverse English Extended/Reverse Sumerian | הנשיא (ha-nasi) — the prince / leader |
| 394 | ASCII | To his annointed one (Messiah) (למשיחו) |
| 378 | Songs happen near sparrows nests(notorikan) | Your annointed one/in peace/safety |
| 444 | Sumerian | Temple/Sanctuary - מקדש |
| 452 | Avgad Milu’i | במקדשו — in His sanctuary |
| 460 | Mispar HaShemi, Mispar Ragil, Syriac Abjad | King of Salem (Melchizedek – Priest-King) |
| 461 | Mispar Kolel (standard) | אתמך — your support / I will support you |
| 462 | arbak | ותוכל And you shall be able / And you shall endure. |
| 464 | Mispar Musafi | (Our Love) אהבתנו |
| 484 | Achas Beta | לחתום — to sign / to seal |
| 500 | SNSN (GREEK) | Phi Golden Ratio / Divine Proportion / Cosmic Order Temple Wall / Garment |
| 508 | SHNSN (GREEK) | scar, wound scarred over - οὐλή |
| 510 | Enochian Aurum Solis | (poem/song) שיר |
| 561 | Mispar Kidmi | והקמתי — and I will establish |
| 590 | Gilgul | לשמרך — to guard you , תעלץ — you will rejoice |
| 610 | Hebrew Avgad | (company/friend of) חברת |
| 620 | Albam Milu’i | כתר — crown |
| 626 | Triangular | Gatekeepers (שוערים) |
| 67 | Bovarian Illuminati | אדונו - his master / his lord |
| 692 | Mispar Shemi (spelled out letter names) | exultatation (רוממות) |
| 780 | Mispar ha-Akhor | Complete / peaceful - שלמית |
| 781 | Mispar HaGalil (Gadol) | תשועה – salvation / deliverance |
| 803 | Ambal | החפשית (Ha-chof****)The free / set free |
| 870 | Georgian | ונקדשתי — and I shall be sanctified |
| 888 | English Extended | Iesus / Light Followed / Morning Star |
| 904 | Octal | המתנבאות — the ones who prophesy (f.pl.) / the prophetesses |
| 1006 | Achbi | ושמרתני — "and you will keep / guard me" |
| 1100 | SXNSN (GREEK) | Οπτιμυς (Optimus) ("The Best" / "The Greatest" / "Most Excellent") |
| 1110 | Mispar Gadol | YHVH × 10 (Manifested Divine Name) / וַיֹּאמֶר אֵלַי מַלְאַךְ הָאֱלֹהִים בַּחֲלוֹם: “יַעֲקֹב”; וָאֹמַר, הִנֵּנִי. -And the angel of God said to me in the dream, “Jacob,” and I said, “Here I am.” |
| 1111 | Mispar Kolel (Gadol) | Proverbs 3:26 For the Lord will be your confidence, and will keep your foot from being caught. |
| 1150 | ashbar | "That Thy beloved may be delivered, save with Thy right hand, and answer me." |
| 1200 | Coptic | Let God arise, let His enemies be scattered; let those who hate Him flee before Him. |
| 1384 | Lurianiac | Psalms 92:15 — "They shall still bear fruit in old age; they shall be full of sap and green." |
| 1408 | SNSN Greek Full Spelling | στέργω - to love , σωτήρ - savior |
| 1409 | At-Bach | Lamentations 3:26 — It is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord |
| 1500 | Armenian gematria | “But I know that my Redeemer lives, and that He will stand upon the earth at the last.” |
| 1520 | Mispar Bone'eh | "And it shall be to them for a name" |
| 1717 | SHNSN Greek Full Spelling | στρατηγέω - to be a general |
| 1740 | Mispar Kidmi / HaKadmi (Frontal) | "He sent Moses His servant, and Aaron whom He had chosen." |
| 2104 | Milu’i HaKadmi | “There is a river—its streams make glad the city of God, the holy dwelling places of the Most High.” |
| 2170 | Mispar Bone'eh extended | "Awake, O north wind; and come, thou south; blow upon my garden, that the spices thereof may flow out. Let my beloved come into his garden, and eat his pleasant fruits." |
| 2340 | Glagolitic | “Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust and not fear. For the LORD, Yah, is my strength and my song, and He has become my salvation.” |
| 2420 | Mispar Mispari | “And do not take the word of truth utterly out of my mouth; for I have hoped in Your judgments.” |
| 2472 | Mispar HaPerati HaGadol | “The scepter shall not depart from Judah, nor the ruler’s staff from between his feet, until Shiloh comes; and to him shall be the obedience of the peoples.” |
| 3122 | Mispar Shemi Extended | "Righteousness guards him who is upright in his way, but wickedness overthrows the sinner." |
| 3380 | Mispar ha-Akhor (Gadol) | And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying: “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left. |
| 236 | Reverse Satanic | כאריה - like a lion / בחיריו - his chosen ones |
| 191 | Reverse Francis Bacon | מקומה — her place / its place נאמנים — faithful / loyal ולהצילך — to save you |
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The letter aspect of SHNSN -
In hebrew to spell SHNSN the letters are Shin Nun Samech Final Nun. In kabbalistic tradition this tells a story.
n Kabbalistic tradition, the letters of the Hebrew alphabet are not merely phonetic signs—they are seen as primordial spiritual forces, the "building blocks" of creation. When read as a sequence, the letters Shin, Nun, Samech, and Final Nun (ש–נ–ס–ן) are understood to tell a story of the soul's journey from its divine origin through exile and finally to redemption.
- Shin (ש) – Divine Fire & Primal Impulse: Shin symbolizes primordial fire, the raw creative energy of the Divine. In a narrative sense, it represents the initial spark of emanation, the first impulse of divine will or light that begins the drama of creation.
- Nun (נ) – The Bent Soul & Descent: Nun is a bent letter, symbolizing humility, the soul (Nefesh), and its necessary descent into the material world. It represents the soul bending, enduring suffering or exile, and taking on the limitations of physical existence.
- Samech (ס) – Divine Support & The Encircling Grace: Samech is a complete circle, representing the unbroken cycle of divine providence and support (its name means "to support"). In the story, it comes as the hidden, protective grace that encircles and upholds the "fallen" Nun, preventing it from being destroyed in its lowly state.
- Final Nun (ן) – The Upright & Perfected Soul: The Final Nun is a straight, extended pillar, representing the soul that has been supported through darkness and has risen, transformed. It stands upright, perfected and eternal—a symbol of ultimate rectification and redemption.
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The Sound Aspect -
When you meditate on SHNSN it starts to sound/blend like the word Ascension. Ascending your thoughts and mind is the whole point of meditation so SHNSN can be used as a mantra
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i had the name sunshine for 14 years then flipped it to shinesun. Discovered shineson as a homophone. Found the words and made the tree. Then to bind all the words together i dropped the vowels like yhvh to make shnsn. Then i translated to hebrew to do gemetria and discovered the letter story. I did gemetria. Then while meditating on shnsn i discovered it sounded like ascenion
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Originally I used the name Sunshine for rachel instead of baby or sweetheart. After we broke up, i wouldnt call any future girlfriends Sunshine. Over time as I discovered I still loved Rachel, throughout the 14 years the word Sunshine became an emotionally charged word for me, and even sacred to me. So when I wanted to bind up the memory of us together vs the state of us not being together I coined the name Shinesun to reflect her today as my ex, and Sunshine as her when she was mine.
In my wrestling with theology, i believed in jesus, so when i saw the word Shineson sounding like Shinesun, i made it a personal name for Jesus.
SHNSN is Shinesun/Shineson without the vowels
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One thing I have been reflecting on....
Could SHNSN be my white stone promised to the Overcomers in the book of Revelations?
A white stone could be broken into parts and split between parties. Each party had a piece to fit into others to prove a intimate bond between them. There is 4 parts here. Sunshine (Rachel) / Shineson (Me) / Shineson (Jesus) / SHNSN (YHVH)....
Maybe this denotes a connection/bond between us.
A white stone is cast to denote an acquitalll. Could SHNSN be a sign to ease my self doubts and when I judge myself too harshly?
A white stone can be a victory token, maybe a sign that my 14 year wrestling match is completed (Jacob and Rachel cycle)
A white stone can be an invitation to a feast, maybe the wedding feast of the lamb?
A white stone was used as an urim and thum to determine Gods will. I can use SHNSN as a mantra (it can blend with the word Ascencion). to meditate and ascend my mind to hear God
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Typo the 4 part section i put Shineson is both me and jesus.
I ment Shinesun (me) / Shineson (Jesus)
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Let me set the Story. 14 years ago, I'm in my early 20's. 21/22 yrs old. At that time, I have a "general" belief in Jesus and God, but not deep enough to search him or read the bible. Just a empty faith. My babysitter when I was a toddler, took me to church. I attended Awana's as a pre-teen/young boy. And in high school I attended a church with a girl, because I had a crush on her and her parents invited me to start going to church with them. Those parents even set up a "fellowship group", that got us high schoolers together at hangout spot. It had good Christian intentions, and at times there was Christian messages at the group, but it was mostly a hangout spot for kids supervised by parents. Then after high school, I attended an Apostolic Church for a year with my dad. So I was predisposed to the Lord, but I was young and my heart wasn't committed/fully invested. I believed, but I lacked "Depth".
In the college school year of 2011-2012 I start dating a Girl named Rachel. While dating, I have a vision. This vision I forget about until about 6-8 months later when I have my 2nd experience that unlocks the memory of this vision. So its like a flashback memory. But the memory came to me so vividly, that I remember details about this vision, as if I lived it and actually experienced it.
So the first experience/vision.....I visited my father one weekend from college. While staying at his house overnight, I get up to use the bathroom. When i finish and pass my dad in the living room. (He slept on the couch), he was awake and told me to sit next to him. He then explained to me he wasn't my father, but he was really Gabriel. He placed his hand on my forehead. Immediately air rushed into my lungs and i sneezed with my mouth. At the same time, I felt the sensation of warm water being poured over me. I was then pulled out of my body into a separate "realm" that was above. This realm was pure black. Out of the blackness a Silvery/Blue face appears, and says "Thomas, I swear by my great name you are mine". He then asks me several times what I want, and I keep changing my answer. First it was to "live lives", then it was "for my mother to have another child. Then it was "just to be happy", then it was "to get out of the military", then finally I answered "I wanted to marry Rachel". I was sent off to bed, and as I laid in bed I heard a voice say to me, "My dad was going to die".....so I pleaded with the voice and said "Give my dad, mercy" (meaning his soul). [side note, 14 years later. he is still alive (but his life collapsed around him and changed majorly and he is doing really good now)] I fell asleep and forgot about this vision until my 2nd experience happened. I place this vision happening just before the Holiday Season 2011. I interpret this as a baptism of water and spirit. All these wishes centered around one thing (looking back). I basically wished for "Life"
3 Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. 4 Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born? 5 Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. 6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. 7 Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again. 8 The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one that is born of the Spirit.
Fast forward to Summer break. Rachel and I had broken up at the end of the school year, and i wasn't dealing with my emotions properly. I buried them, refusing to think about the pain and heartbreak. I started a job as a flagger for the oil and gas industry and we had plenty of downtime. Enough downtime where I had hours and hours to just sit and think. During this time my thoughts began to wander towards God, and missing not having a girlfriend. So I decide to pick up the Bible and read it at work. I read the Bible from cover to cover in 3 months for the first time on my own. During the timeframe I was power-reading the bible for the first time. I was sitting with a group of friends hanging out one day. When all of a sudden, i have the thought that God himself is going to smite me dead on the spot. This feelings of utter terror washes over me, and I am paralyzed with fear. The only thing I can do, is start crying loudly in front of everybody (seemingly random to everybody) and start praying in Glossolalia. (something I learned to do by only hearing my Dad do it once, Apostolics do it). While crying and praying in tongues in front of my friends, I felt the feeling and emotion of terror wash away from me, to be replaced with the feeling of Peace and Comfort and Reassurance. As I felt this way, my mind took control of itself. Thoughts were planted into my brain forcefully, and at the same time I heard a voice accompany them. This voice wasn't a whisper. It was loud and audible to me. The thoughts and the voice said "Thomas, You are the lonely sparrow, but I have given you wings, oh what mighty wings they are, spread them and fly." The feeling and voice disappeared and my mind relaxed, and I was left with my friends staring at me wondering what just happened.
Today, I equate this experience with Solomon's verse "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom". …9Instruct a wise man, and he will be wiser still; teach a righteous man, and he will increase his learning. 10The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. 11For through wisdom your days will be multiplied, and years will be added to your life.…
About another 4-5 months after the "Fear of the Lord Experience". I am reskimming the New Testament. I come across this verse where Jesus commands the Rich man to give away all his possessions and follow him. I took this seriously. Seriously enough to get a hold of a local church and give all my possessions away. ALL MY CLOTHES. I gave away all my electronics. EVERYTHING, but my vehicle, which was owned by my dad. I even called my boss and quit my easy flagging job. I literally owned nothing but my Dad's vehicle, my bed, my pillow, my blanket, the clothes on my back, and the socks and shoes on my feet. I still had a little bit of money in my bank account, not much. Less than a few hundred dollars, but if I had thought about it at the time, I probably would've emptied my bank account too, but that thought didn't cross my mind. At the time, I believed I was taking a leap of faith that God would provide for me. …
20“All these I have kept,” said the young man. “What do I still lack?” 21 Jesus told him, “If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow Me.” 22When the young man heard this, he went away in sorrow, because he had great wealth.…
My Dad catching wind of this, takes me to the hospital. I am diagnosed with Schizoaffective-Bipolar Type 2. Schizophrenia runs on my mothers side of the family. My grandmother had it, and my mother had it so bad, my parents were forced to divorce when i was age 3 for my safety concerns as a child. I interpret this moment of my life as "denying myself, and taking up my cross (schizophrenia).
24 Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life[a] will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul?
I feel as if I "lost my life" for his sake, when the oath was given to me "I swear by my great name you are mine". Because in the following year that followed that oath, i lost my position at ROTC in college, lost my girlfriend, dropped out of college, kicked out of the National Guard, lost my ambition and then I gave away everything i had to a church, and diagnosed with a mental illness that ran in the family. I effectively "lost" my current life. Now it has been around 14 years since those 3 experiences. A major reason why I chose to seek god during my time as a flagger, was to address my loneliness and the emptiness I felt over the breakup with Rachel. While dating Rachel, instead of the pet names "baby" or "sweetheart". I choose the name "Sunshine" to call Rachel. And I used that name pretty much exclusively, and for her only. Even years later, when I dated other girls. I always reserved that name for her. Even though the emptiness and pain didn't completely go away after we broke up, I attempted to move on and date other girls. But as time and the years passed, i kept finding that I still loved Rachel. And over these past 14 years, I have never stopped wrestling with Theology and my internal Thoughts and feelings to seek and find God. I settled into this "wrestling mindset" and even saw myself as a Biblical Jacob Archetype (once I realized the love for Rachel would never go away), wrestling with God.
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