I'm starting this thread in order to summarize literally thousands of hours of experience of diving deep into my subconsciousness in order to discover the truth about myself but in the process of discovering the truth about everything else, too. This thread will primarily focus on my memories from a previous lifetimes as part of a nation called the Tuatauan and their history from a primitive tribe inhabiting inhospitable part of a larger continent called the Tradarak through the development of an unique culture to survive their inhospitable environment, their enslavement by a neighboring civilization for thousands of years, the eventual defeat of that civilization after a rebellion and the establishment of the Tuatauan civilization called the Tiahuanopan all the way to the failed attempt at Theogenesis made by the Tuatauans. Yeah, I know posting all of this like this at the beginning of the thread makes little sense at all, doesn't it, but, please, wait and follow the entire thread for information about the history and experience of an entire civilization with a completely different polarity than the one of this civilization-the modern industrial civilization that we currently inhabit and make comparisons which would enlighten you as to what is possible if you inverse the polarity of society.
By polarity of society I mean the ratio of people choosing whether their souls want to merge with the Source or become Sources themselves. Our current civilization has quite strong right polarity-it means most of its members want to find their way back to the Source and merge with it. Which is completely fine since the entire point of free will is to make it possible to choose whether you want to be a part of this Source which nourishes these particular plans (of Universes founded on the eternal fight between Good and Evil) or do you wish to become a new Source accepting a new plan for Universe/s in the process. This civilization wants to direct the souls of its inhabitants back to the Source, the Tiahuanopan was build on different foundations. It was a left polarity civilization meaning its goal was to elevate the spirits of its inhabitants to the ability to choose a plan for themselves and leave this existence by becoming Sources on their own instead of merging with the current one. This dichotomy if what I would like to explore throughout this thread. I think it's about time to unveil long standing lies and manipulations about the two paths that have permeated the history of this civilization and let the truth about the left path free no matter the disapproval from the spirits guarding this civilization that it will cause. And what better way will there be for that than you hearing the history of the Tuatauan people-a truly left path followers?
However, before continuing I wish to issue a WARNING-the history of the Tuatauan is full of bloodshed and practices some of you may find obscene. It's far from a direct path to perfection. This is why I would advice strong reader's discretion and will warn you that imitating them is a very dangerous enterprise. The point of this thread is to show you what a left civilization looks like but also to warn you about the potential perils of that path, too. In the end there is no perfect path and no matter your intentions you must be proven by fire to enjoy the fruits of any path you choose. That will be the essence of this story, too. Therefore, proceed with care and use the knowledge you would gain from reading these stories carefully.
Before I start my story I would like to state the circumstances that lead me into participating into the karmic path I declare the Tuatauans to be. Before I was sent to the Tradarak I was on a very different spiritual path. First, I remember getting separated from my true and only eternal love (yes I believe I have such a soul-the one destined to me) and I had a very hard time coping with that separation. I got closed off to myself. I stopped enjoying life no matter what pleasures it could offer me. I started going on a very steep and selfless path toward liberation. The fact I was in a very restrictive civilization that didn't allow for much personal freedom and selfishness also wasn't helping. I closed off myself and decided to take the right path, that means the path that leads to the unification with the Source. I blamed the whole Universe for not being able to give me even one thing I could desire. Other thing that wasn't helping was the fact I had too many female incarnations, far outnumbering my male ones. I don't remember much of the details of my bodies before I ended up among the Tuatauans but I think I wasn't even a human back then. But there were clearly two genders and I was predominantly the female one. That separation pain lead me to follow a very steep path towards the Source onto which I shed all material pleasures and grew my spirit in preparation to the final merger.
But there was something missing in me that whole time. My journey, although heavily approved by the collective I was part of, wasn't one of a personal volition but rather quite a forced one both by myself and others since I felt the Universe wasn't giving me any other options. My spirit was ready for the merger but my mind was blind. It didn't know where to go, neither what to want. I was in a very precarious situation where my powers and knowledge were increasing but it was for the sake of my free will and self-worth. And in these precise circumstances I lived through a lifetime, I think again a female incarnation, when I did everything "by the book"-an entire lifetime devoid of any desire, of any longings, of any actions, just a blind obedience to the collective and no personal input whatsoever. The only thought I had for that entire lifetime was-"I wanna reach the Source.". After I left my mortal body in that lifetime I remember getting blind about all the other afterlives I could have-getting blind about both the pleasures and the pains of this form of existence, of the positive and negative actions, of all the karma one soul could gain, even of Good and Evil. My soul had one goal and one goal only-to get back to the Source. And I did it.
After that lifetime I managed to climb ever higher and higher and faster and faster far further than anything before or after. My spirit, my essence, my at (as it is called in the language of the Tuatauans) was ready to give up on its existence altogether. There was nothing any more I could desire. Only peace, only calmness, only oneness with the eternity. And then I reached it-higher and higher beyond anything imagination could imagine, thought could think of and experience experience an infinite bright light was upon me. I feel I crossed all the worlds, all the paths and all the existences desire could desire to reach that infinite sea of light. I started to disappear. My only though, however, was:
-There is nothing you can give me that I could like.
Therefore, it was best for me to just vanish into that Light. To disappear forever. If possible, without a trace. That was the most logical conclusion my soul had reached after the tribulations I was through. I challenged the entire Universe, God himself to give me something I could desire, or just let me vanish into the Infinite. And then I felt it...
I was able to stand before the Light in all its shining, in all its glory, in all of its infinite embrace and I wasn't sinking any more...I was...staring straight into the infinite ocean of light unable to continue any further my Soul ready to merge but my consciousness longing for something even this infinite light couldn't give me.
Than I heard the words:
-Then, become a Tuatauan.
I immediately started falling straight down the path I came from going further and further away from that infinite light and returning to the material world. I was onto a new mission further and further away from the worlds I came from and into a completely new experience, into something that could give me what even the infinite Light of all creation couldn't...
My journey didn't start with the beginning of the history of the Tuatauans. There were probably several thousands of years between the moment Tuatauans appeared and the moment I came through. They inhabited the most southern tip of the continent called Tradarak which formed a peninsular with roughly triangular shape. This peninsular consisted of an eastern edge where a tall and wide mountain range towered above a hilly central region and a plane lowering to the west. This is the original land of the Tuatuans-a small peninsular at the southernmost tip of a much larger continent where this story begins. This was the stage of the early history of the people of Tiatauan and also the cradle of this civilization. If you ask me where this land and the continent of the Tradarak is located I can't answer, even today. I believe it was on the planet Earth but it may well not be that Earth we are living in. Let me explain.
Imagine the Universe is infinite. Then imagine that each circumstance that may play out, each arrangement of events that doesn't contradict itself, does plays out. But in a different place within this infinite Universe, a place that may be infinitely far away from any other place where similar events are playing out. Now imagine that the soul could travel with infinite speed after death and before birth. Actually, the properer way is to say the soul could be carried with infinite speed among those different versions of the same place. Then can the soul really recognize in which version of this place it is in, under what circumstances it operates, what is the plan it is operating under?
The idea is there are many versions of anything in an infinite Universe, however, each of them is slightly different. The soul could travel almost instantaneously among them after death and before birth, therefore, different "plans" can be played at places that are essentially one and the same bar minimal differences. It's these differences that grow potentially and proportionally the further into the infinite one goes stretching the limits of what is possible. Now having that perspective in mind the version of Earth where the Tradarak happens to be could be the same general "plan" as this Earth is, however, not the same planet and not the same stellar configuration as this particular planet. In order to not confuse you any more I will just pretend that this is another planet far far away, infinitely far away actually, which just happens to have similar evolution as Earth-similar plants, animals and climate and similar people as this planet but it has slightly different geography and history.
However, I believe that this planet and our Earth are fundamentally interlinked with one another as different versions of the same thing just too far apart from each other. Therefore, the same, or closely shared, groups of souls inhabit them. There come the similarities between them. I haven't moved away from Earth, I just landed on a different version of it. And you would see what I mean if you manage to wait till the end of my story since it would take quite a long time to explain you what had actually happened on that planet in general and the Tradarak in particular. But long story short that planet is no more-gone by our fault. We did something we weren't supposed to do and the planet suffered a major cataclysm. And that is why I'm now traveling among various versions of it in search of the pieces of karma that will help me finally find my place in the great order of things so I could complete the journey I started when I refused that light so long ago. But that's another story....
By polarity of society I mean the ratio of people choosing whether their souls want to merge with the Source or become Sources themselves. Our current civilization has quite strong right polarity-it means most of its members want to find their way back to the Source and merge with it. Which is completely fine since the entire point of free will is to make it possible to choose whether you want to be a part of this Source which nourishes these particular plans (of Universes founded on the eternal fight between Good and Evil) or do you wish to become a new Source accepting a new plan for Universe/s in the process. This civilization wants to direct the souls of its inhabitants back to the Source, the Tiahuanopan was build on different foundations. It was a left polarity civilization meaning its goal was to elevate the spirits of its inhabitants to the ability to choose a plan for themselves and leave this existence by becoming Sources on their own instead of merging with the current one. This dichotomy if what I would like to explore throughout this thread. I think it's about time to unveil long standing lies and manipulations about the two paths that have permeated the history of this civilization and let the truth about the left path free no matter the disapproval from the spirits guarding this civilization that it will cause. And what better way will there be for that than you hearing the history of the Tuatauan people-a truly left path followers?
However, before continuing I wish to issue a WARNING-the history of the Tuatauan is full of bloodshed and practices some of you may find obscene. It's far from a direct path to perfection. This is why I would advice strong reader's discretion and will warn you that imitating them is a very dangerous enterprise. The point of this thread is to show you what a left civilization looks like but also to warn you about the potential perils of that path, too. In the end there is no perfect path and no matter your intentions you must be proven by fire to enjoy the fruits of any path you choose. That will be the essence of this story, too. Therefore, proceed with care and use the knowledge you would gain from reading these stories carefully.
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Before I start my story I would like to state the circumstances that lead me into participating into the karmic path I declare the Tuatauans to be. Before I was sent to the Tradarak I was on a very different spiritual path. First, I remember getting separated from my true and only eternal love (yes I believe I have such a soul-the one destined to me) and I had a very hard time coping with that separation. I got closed off to myself. I stopped enjoying life no matter what pleasures it could offer me. I started going on a very steep and selfless path toward liberation. The fact I was in a very restrictive civilization that didn't allow for much personal freedom and selfishness also wasn't helping. I closed off myself and decided to take the right path, that means the path that leads to the unification with the Source. I blamed the whole Universe for not being able to give me even one thing I could desire. Other thing that wasn't helping was the fact I had too many female incarnations, far outnumbering my male ones. I don't remember much of the details of my bodies before I ended up among the Tuatauans but I think I wasn't even a human back then. But there were clearly two genders and I was predominantly the female one. That separation pain lead me to follow a very steep path towards the Source onto which I shed all material pleasures and grew my spirit in preparation to the final merger.
But there was something missing in me that whole time. My journey, although heavily approved by the collective I was part of, wasn't one of a personal volition but rather quite a forced one both by myself and others since I felt the Universe wasn't giving me any other options. My spirit was ready for the merger but my mind was blind. It didn't know where to go, neither what to want. I was in a very precarious situation where my powers and knowledge were increasing but it was for the sake of my free will and self-worth. And in these precise circumstances I lived through a lifetime, I think again a female incarnation, when I did everything "by the book"-an entire lifetime devoid of any desire, of any longings, of any actions, just a blind obedience to the collective and no personal input whatsoever. The only thought I had for that entire lifetime was-"I wanna reach the Source.". After I left my mortal body in that lifetime I remember getting blind about all the other afterlives I could have-getting blind about both the pleasures and the pains of this form of existence, of the positive and negative actions, of all the karma one soul could gain, even of Good and Evil. My soul had one goal and one goal only-to get back to the Source. And I did it.
After that lifetime I managed to climb ever higher and higher and faster and faster far further than anything before or after. My spirit, my essence, my at (as it is called in the language of the Tuatauans) was ready to give up on its existence altogether. There was nothing any more I could desire. Only peace, only calmness, only oneness with the eternity. And then I reached it-higher and higher beyond anything imagination could imagine, thought could think of and experience experience an infinite bright light was upon me. I feel I crossed all the worlds, all the paths and all the existences desire could desire to reach that infinite sea of light. I started to disappear. My only though, however, was:
-There is nothing you can give me that I could like.
Therefore, it was best for me to just vanish into that Light. To disappear forever. If possible, without a trace. That was the most logical conclusion my soul had reached after the tribulations I was through. I challenged the entire Universe, God himself to give me something I could desire, or just let me vanish into the Infinite. And then I felt it...
I was able to stand before the Light in all its shining, in all its glory, in all of its infinite embrace and I wasn't sinking any more...I was...staring straight into the infinite ocean of light unable to continue any further my Soul ready to merge but my consciousness longing for something even this infinite light couldn't give me.
Than I heard the words:
-Then, become a Tuatauan.
I immediately started falling straight down the path I came from going further and further away from that infinite light and returning to the material world. I was onto a new mission further and further away from the worlds I came from and into a completely new experience, into something that could give me what even the infinite Light of all creation couldn't...
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My journey didn't start with the beginning of the history of the Tuatauans. There were probably several thousands of years between the moment Tuatauans appeared and the moment I came through. They inhabited the most southern tip of the continent called Tradarak which formed a peninsular with roughly triangular shape. This peninsular consisted of an eastern edge where a tall and wide mountain range towered above a hilly central region and a plane lowering to the west. This is the original land of the Tuatuans-a small peninsular at the southernmost tip of a much larger continent where this story begins. This was the stage of the early history of the people of Tiatauan and also the cradle of this civilization. If you ask me where this land and the continent of the Tradarak is located I can't answer, even today. I believe it was on the planet Earth but it may well not be that Earth we are living in. Let me explain.
Imagine the Universe is infinite. Then imagine that each circumstance that may play out, each arrangement of events that doesn't contradict itself, does plays out. But in a different place within this infinite Universe, a place that may be infinitely far away from any other place where similar events are playing out. Now imagine that the soul could travel with infinite speed after death and before birth. Actually, the properer way is to say the soul could be carried with infinite speed among those different versions of the same place. Then can the soul really recognize in which version of this place it is in, under what circumstances it operates, what is the plan it is operating under?
The idea is there are many versions of anything in an infinite Universe, however, each of them is slightly different. The soul could travel almost instantaneously among them after death and before birth, therefore, different "plans" can be played at places that are essentially one and the same bar minimal differences. It's these differences that grow potentially and proportionally the further into the infinite one goes stretching the limits of what is possible. Now having that perspective in mind the version of Earth where the Tradarak happens to be could be the same general "plan" as this Earth is, however, not the same planet and not the same stellar configuration as this particular planet. In order to not confuse you any more I will just pretend that this is another planet far far away, infinitely far away actually, which just happens to have similar evolution as Earth-similar plants, animals and climate and similar people as this planet but it has slightly different geography and history.
However, I believe that this planet and our Earth are fundamentally interlinked with one another as different versions of the same thing just too far apart from each other. Therefore, the same, or closely shared, groups of souls inhabit them. There come the similarities between them. I haven't moved away from Earth, I just landed on a different version of it. And you would see what I mean if you manage to wait till the end of my story since it would take quite a long time to explain you what had actually happened on that planet in general and the Tradarak in particular. But long story short that planet is no more-gone by our fault. We did something we weren't supposed to do and the planet suffered a major cataclysm. And that is why I'm now traveling among various versions of it in search of the pieces of karma that will help me finally find my place in the great order of things so I could complete the journey I started when I refused that light so long ago. But that's another story....
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