Journal Tuat suayutlyuk

[Suayakoat]

I'm starting this thread in order to summarize literally thousands of hours of experience of diving deep into my subconsciousness in order to discover the truth about myself but in the process of discovering the truth about everything else, too. This thread will primarily focus on my memories from a previous lifetimes as part of a nation called the Tuatauan and their history from a primitive tribe inhabiting inhospitable part of a larger continent called the Tradarak through the development of an unique culture to survive their inhospitable environment, their enslavement by a neighboring civilization for thousands of years, the eventual defeat of that civilization after a rebellion and the establishment of the Tuatauan civilization called the Tiahuanopan all the way to the failed attempt at Theogenesis made by the Tuatauans. Yeah, I know posting all of this like this at the beginning of the thread makes little sense at all, doesn't it, but, please, wait and follow the entire thread for information about the history and experience of an entire civilization with a completely different polarity than the one of this civilization-the modern industrial civilization that we currently inhabit and make comparisons which would enlighten you as to what is possible if you inverse the polarity of society.

By polarity of society I mean the ratio of people choosing whether their souls want to merge with the Source or become Sources themselves. Our current civilization has quite strong right polarity-it means most of its members want to find their way back to the Source and merge with it. Which is completely fine since the entire point of free will is to make it possible to choose whether you want to be a part of this Source which nourishes these particular plans (of Universes founded on the eternal fight between Good and Evil) or do you wish to become a new Source accepting a new plan for Universe/s in the process. This civilization wants to direct the souls of its inhabitants back to the Source, the Tiahuanopan was build on different foundations. It was a left polarity civilization meaning its goal was to elevate the spirits of its inhabitants to the ability to choose a plan for themselves and leave this existence by becoming Sources on their own instead of merging with the current one. This dichotomy if what I would like to explore throughout this thread. I think it's about time to unveil long standing lies and manipulations about the two paths that have permeated the history of this civilization and let the truth about the left path free no matter the disapproval from the spirits guarding this civilization that it will cause. And what better way will there be for that than you hearing the history of the Tuatauan people-a truly left path followers?

However, before continuing I wish to issue a WARNING-the history of the Tuatauan is full of bloodshed and practices some of you may find obscene. It's far from a direct path to perfection. This is why I would advice strong reader's discretion and will warn you that imitating them is a very dangerous enterprise. The point of this thread is to show you what a left civilization looks like but also to warn you about the potential perils of that path, too. In the end there is no perfect path and no matter your intentions you must be proven by fire to enjoy the fruits of any path you choose. That will be the essence of this story, too. Therefore, proceed with care and use the knowledge you would gain from reading these stories carefully.

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Before I start my story I would like to state the circumstances that lead me into participating into the karmic path I declare the Tuatauans to be. Before I was sent to the Tradarak I was on a very different spiritual path. First, I remember getting separated from my true and only eternal love (yes I believe I have such a soul-the one destined to me) and I had a very hard time coping with that separation. I got closed off to myself. I stopped enjoying life no matter what pleasures it could offer me. I started going on a very steep and selfless path toward liberation. The fact I was in a very restrictive civilization that didn't allow for much personal freedom and selfishness also wasn't helping. I closed off myself and decided to take the right path, that means the path that leads to the unification with the Source. I blamed the whole Universe for not being able to give me even one thing I could desire. Other thing that wasn't helping was the fact I had too many female incarnations, far outnumbering my male ones. I don't remember much of the details of my bodies before I ended up among the Tuatauans but I think I wasn't even a human back then. But there were clearly two genders and I was predominantly the female one. That separation pain lead me to follow a very steep path towards the Source onto which I shed all material pleasures and grew my spirit in preparation to the final merger.

But there was something missing in me that whole time. My journey, although heavily approved by the collective I was part of, wasn't one of a personal volition but rather quite a forced one both by myself and others since I felt the Universe wasn't giving me any other options. My spirit was ready for the merger but my mind was blind. It didn't know where to go, neither what to want. I was in a very precarious situation where my powers and knowledge were increasing but it was for the sake of my free will and self-worth. And in these precise circumstances I lived through a lifetime, I think again a female incarnation, when I did everything "by the book"-an entire lifetime devoid of any desire, of any longings, of any actions, just a blind obedience to the collective and no personal input whatsoever. The only thought I had for that entire lifetime was-"I wanna reach the Source.". After I left my mortal body in that lifetime I remember getting blind about all the other afterlives I could have-getting blind about both the pleasures and the pains of this form of existence, of the positive and negative actions, of all the karma one soul could gain, even of Good and Evil. My soul had one goal and one goal only-to get back to the Source. And I did it.

After that lifetime I managed to climb ever higher and higher and faster and faster far further than anything before or after. My spirit, my essence, my at (as it is called in the language of the Tuatauans) was ready to give up on its existence altogether. There was nothing any more I could desire. Only peace, only calmness, only oneness with the eternity. And then I reached it-higher and higher beyond anything imagination could imagine, thought could think of and experience experience an infinite bright light was upon me. I feel I crossed all the worlds, all the paths and all the existences desire could desire to reach that infinite sea of light. I started to disappear. My only though, however, was:
-There is nothing you can give me that I could like.

Therefore, it was best for me to just vanish into that Light. To disappear forever. If possible, without a trace. That was the most logical conclusion my soul had reached after the tribulations I was through. I challenged the entire Universe, God himself to give me something I could desire, or just let me vanish into the Infinite. And then I felt it...

I was able to stand before the Light in all its shining, in all its glory, in all of its infinite embrace and I wasn't sinking any more...I was...staring straight into the infinite ocean of light unable to continue any further my Soul ready to merge but my consciousness longing for something even this infinite light couldn't give me.

Than I heard the words:
-Then, become a Tuatauan.

I immediately started falling straight down the path I came from going further and further away from that infinite light and returning to the material world. I was onto a new mission further and further away from the worlds I came from and into a completely new experience, into something that could give me what even the infinite Light of all creation couldn't...

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My journey didn't start with the beginning of the history of the Tuatauans. There were probably several thousands of years between the moment Tuatauans appeared and the moment I came through. They inhabited the most southern tip of the continent called Tradarak which formed a peninsular with roughly triangular shape. This peninsular consisted of an eastern edge where a tall and wide mountain range towered above a hilly central region and a plane lowering to the west. This is the original land of the Tuatuans-a small peninsular at the southernmost tip of a much larger continent where this story begins. This was the stage of the early history of the people of Tiatauan and also the cradle of this civilization. If you ask me where this land and the continent of the Tradarak is located I can't answer, even today. I believe it was on the planet Earth but it may well not be that Earth we are living in. Let me explain.

Imagine the Universe is infinite. Then imagine that each circumstance that may play out, each arrangement of events that doesn't contradict itself, does plays out. But in a different place within this infinite Universe, a place that may be infinitely far away from any other place where similar events are playing out. Now imagine that the soul could travel with infinite speed after death and before birth. Actually, the properer way is to say the soul could be carried with infinite speed among those different versions of the same place. Then can the soul really recognize in which version of this place it is in, under what circumstances it operates, what is the plan it is operating under?

The idea is there are many versions of anything in an infinite Universe, however, each of them is slightly different. The soul could travel almost instantaneously among them after death and before birth, therefore, different "plans" can be played at places that are essentially one and the same bar minimal differences. It's these differences that grow potentially and proportionally the further into the infinite one goes stretching the limits of what is possible. Now having that perspective in mind the version of Earth where the Tradarak happens to be could be the same general "plan" as this Earth is, however, not the same planet and not the same stellar configuration as this particular planet. In order to not confuse you any more I will just pretend that this is another planet far far away, infinitely far away actually, which just happens to have similar evolution as Earth-similar plants, animals and climate and similar people as this planet but it has slightly different geography and history.

However, I believe that this planet and our Earth are fundamentally interlinked with one another as different versions of the same thing just too far apart from each other. Therefore, the same, or closely shared, groups of souls inhabit them. There come the similarities between them. I haven't moved away from Earth, I just landed on a different version of it. And you would see what I mean if you manage to wait till the end of my story since it would take quite a long time to explain you what had actually happened on that planet in general and the Tradarak in particular. But long story short that planet is no more-gone by our fault. We did something we weren't supposed to do and the planet suffered a major cataclysm. And that is why I'm now traveling among various versions of it in search of the pieces of karma that will help me finally find my place in the great order of things so I could complete the journey I started when I refused that light so long ago. But that's another story....

 

[Suayakoat]

So, as I was saying the history of the Tuatauan began in the peninsula on the southernmost tip of the Tradarak some millennia before I landed there. In that time this area was covered with lush green forests full of game of different sorts, including species no longer present on our Earth. The climate was tropical and humid and the rainforests supported small groups of hunter-gatherers of just a few families. That's how the Tuatauans started-as these small tribes hunting game in the tropical forests of the Tradarak which had the bare minimum of knowledge necessary to survive and were speaking primitive languages not far removed from the animal tongues. This lifestyle continued for millennia before groups of advanced souls, like mine, landed there and shaped many generations of people into a culture of primitive tribes knowing only stone tools, hunting tactics and forest spirits. In that time frame the Tuatauan lacked any sort of advanced knowledge and were dependent only on what the forests could provide.

During that time the particular look of a Tuatauan was formed. It was tall humans (I mean species Homo sapiens-completely genetically compatible with the humans of this Earth) with brightly yellow skin-the color of sunlight-and black hair and brown eyes. Facial hair was limited to non-existent and the arms and legs were a little bit longer compared to the humans inhabiting this planet nowadays as proportions of the body. These bodies were ideally suited for tropical climates and gave the first Tuatauans perfect adaptations to the bright sunshine that illuminated that part of our world.

However, fate wasn't as generous to these first settlers as to make this frivolous period of history last long. After millennia of primitive existence as forest dwellers that which later was destined to become the Tuatauans were forced to face a major disaster-one that will change their history forever. Gradually but surely the climate began to dry up. Rainfall started to dwindle and the forests started to disappear-first into limited groups of trees around ravines, springs, rivers and all other kinds of sources of water, then into tiny green patches of trees with hardened barks and spikes mixed up with similar looking bushes spread throughout the land and finally into limited grouping of predominantly such bushes mixed up with singular trees around ever so fewer sources of water. Of course, the land didn't dried up overnight and there was plenty of time to prepare for what was coming but a pattern emerged-rain stopped for a few months of the year and concentrated in a period just about a third, and later-the forth of the year when the soil was wet enough to support lush vegetation but no more forests and then dried up for the rest of the year barely supporting dry grass and thorny bush. This is the climate that actually defined the Tuatauan as people and took over the land for the rest of the history I'm about to tell.

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When the forests started dying out and the droughts began to appear the people inhabiting that southernmost peninsular faced an impossible dilemma. How could they feed and gain enough resources to sustain themselves with that new climate without breaking the social bonds that created the small groups of hunter gatherers they were used to live in? It was impossible to continue living on in the old ways as the game was getting rarer and rarer and all the food sources were becoming unsustainable. There was the need to store food for the dry season and to inhabit more permanent settlement along the sources of water. But as the climate was getting dryer and dryer less of those permanent sources of water became available. That caused a great upheaval among the nomadic groups which now needed to settle around sources of water and defend them. By any means necessary. That defense became the source of great struggle and forced the society to change inadvertently.

While before small groups of several families which weren't associated with any particular location and went where the game was best were the norm after the droughts and the division of the year into wet and dry seasons began these groups were forced to settle down around rivers, lakes or springs and build permanent encampments there as well as to store food for the dry season. The problem was that the rain was getting scarcer and scarcer and as the centuries passed almost all rivers dried up for the dry season and the permanent lakes disappeared. Only some springs that required maintenance during the drought remained and all the large game died out. In these circumstances the fight for the few remaining springs intensified and became a cruel battle for survival of the most well organized among the groups. Ad that caused a great split among the people inhabiting those lands.

During the transition from forests to semi-deserts two survival tactics became prominent. Either the strongest males started to dominate larger groups comprised of several of the tribes consisting of several families that were the norm during the hunter gatherers times, or a more egalitarian groups formed where the people shared food and water and sticked together to defend from raids organized by the first sort of groups or roaming groups of males always trying to conquer new sources of water and establish there their groups. In the male dominated groups strict hierarchies and compulsion to grab and secure the food and the water and the women by the strongest coalitions of males dominated. Conflicts there abundant and quite bloody as survival went only to the strongest males. In the groups that shared resources however a more egalitarian system took over where the females were the ones to determine who will get the scarce food and water and the males allowed the women to take decisions as to who they will take as husbands on their own. The drive for the second type of groups was collective defense and decision making lead by assemblies where the women held as much decision power as the males while those strongest males which could enslave all the other (as was happening in the first kind of groups) were persecuted out of the group or forced to obey their rules and give up power. For quite a long time as the soil was drying and the water was getting scarcer those two systems existed in parallel with some of the sources of water getting controlled by groups of the first kind and others by groups of the second. But the inevitable drying of the land forced those two systems into a conflict.

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As the dry seasons kept getting longer and longer and the rainfall ever scarcer the two kinds of systems were competing for ever decreasing number of sources of water and the food associated with them. That caused constant raids primarily by men coming from the groups lead by the dominant males into the more egalitarian groups. It was always easier to gather up men hungry for loot and status and organize all male groups, send them to conquer the nearby egalitarian groups which were being perceived as the weaker one and try to capture their water. However, aware of these tactics and the disadvantage in strength they were facing the more egalitarian groups started counting more on numbers while the ones dominated by the males on the individual strength of their members. This is how a split happened at all levels early in the history of the civilization of that will later grow into the Tuatauans. Smaller but strictly hierarchical male dominated groups started taking over not so prominent (and permanent) sources of water where the stiff competition for food and water (and later-females) made only the strongest ones to survive and caused constant build up of warriors able to organize raids into the larger but weaker on average groups of more egalitarian structure. It didn't helped that the second kind of groups started to frequently banish the most aggressive and strongest of the males fearing their dominance and those males were going straight into the smaller but well organized and dangerous male dominated groups. Aware of the disposition that was creating in the egalitarian groups, which were constantly loosing strong and aggressive males to the male dominated groups, the females there started to employ new strategy to hold the strongest males near enough to protect the groups. They started allowing them access to more than one female thus creating the conditions for those males to stay and protect, rather than leave and raid, the more egalitarian groups. But the backbone of the strength of those more egalitarian groups remained the alliance between the not-so-dominant males and the females which together outnumbered the male dominated groups by several times. Thus, when a raid was organized on them the more egalitarian groups were forced to soak up heavy loses and they couldn't always sustain them and many of them were subjugated and annihilated by raids of smaller but more vicious and aggressive male groups.

When a raid was successful the dominant males would usually kill all the adult and elderly males of the subjugated group, take over the women and force them to breed with the strongest ones among them. Those who refused will be killed, too and the children would be forced to grow up fighting among each other for status for the boys and becoming submissive to the strongest males for the girls. These were the laws of strength that the new climate was forcing and those who couldn't face them ended up dead. However, this social structure had a major flaw-the slots for the strongest men who had access to all the food and water (and the females) were far too few for all the males and live under them was not so far away from true slavery. This is why the weaker males started to search for and join the more egalitarian groups where they would be treated better and have more of a chance to have a spouse. This is why I told you the people split into two and these twos ended up hating and fighting each other constantly. Strong and aggressive males were constantly trying to escape the more egalitarian groups so they could join or establish small but strong and vicious male dominated groups while weaker men from these very same groups were constantly trying to escape them and join the more egalitarian groups for being treated better there. While the droughts didn't manage to fully envelop the lands there was place for both of those kinds of organization and the southernmost tip of the Tradarak was a mesh of both of them with some regions dominated by the males and others by the more egalitarian groups. But the constant march towards ever dryer and dryer climate forced an increasing number of confrontations that made the further existence together of these separate systems impossible.

 

[Suayakoat]

As a rule of thumb the richer and wetter more fertile sources of water were inhabited by the more egalitarian groups since they allowed for more people to live in peace together. Under their structure food and water were more evenly distributed which allowed for feeding more people but with more meager rations. This was an extra reason why everyone in the group was weak-the food and water needed to sustain the weaker members like women, children and elderly prevented these groups from properly feeding their strongest members. Yes, the group had more members per calorie of food and there was genuine peace and cooperation within it but that came at the cost of strength. The problem was that the food and water were constantly getting scarcer and scarcer and there came a moment when the most kind-hearted realized the system was unsustainable. When the food and water became very limited during the dry season there was simply not enough resources for everyone to get by. The strongest males were also perceived to be right to deserve more of the meager supplies in order to keep strong enough to actually defend the group. Facing these conditions the women, who were becoming the domineering voices inside those groups decided that hard choices need to be taken nevertheless no matter how much pity they had for the weaker members. This is when the women thinking took a darker turn. Realizing how impossible it was to feed everyone and how damaging for the whole group would be to deny food and water to the strongest men in order to sustain the most vulnerable some women, actually those who were striving to take control over the entire group, decided to become executioners of the weakest members of these groups. It wasn't a decision they enjoyed but it was one that needed to be done, for the best of the entire group. Thus, when the dry season got into its most dangerous and harshest part some of the women took weapons and started to cull the groups-to cull especially the oldest and the weakest. That practice spread throughout the lands and became a duty of the domineering females. And that is how the route to the real social organization of the Tuatauans came into existence.

A simple rule got established when the mothers became the executioners, too-only the strong shall survive. The groups were to be purged out of their weakest members so there could be enough food and water for the rest. Thus, all groups started to react to the long droughts by purging their members and promoting the survival of the fittest. The difference was that in one kind of groups the males were the ones who decided who will live and who will die, while in the other kinds of groups that was the job of the females. But the climate kept getting dryer and dryer and the few remaining constant sources of water got to be an arena for the battle between those two strategies. Initially killing the weak was the job of the strongest females but as the conditions for life worsened killing the elderly and the weakest wasn't enough to trim the groups enough. Then a new element was taken from the cruel laws of the male dominated groups-when the droughts came and the food and water got scarce battles to the death would be organized among the remaining members of the group. The winners would get the remaining food and water while the losers would pay with their lives. This is how ritualistic murder came to these groups and it was there to stay well into the history of the Tuatauan.

Now both kinds of groups were killing their weaker members. But in the male dominated one the reason wasn't always to save up resources but rather to keep the hierarchy going and to usurp whatever the dominant ones wanted to control. Unlike them in the female dominated groups the goal of the murders was always to save enough for those who would better use it and the traditions there were of respect and worship of the sacrifice of some for the benefit of all. There initially only men fought to trim the group down to only the strongest ones and also the ones who were more suitable to protect the group from raids. However, men started complaining that it wasn't fair for them only to fight and for the women to always survive to be courted by the strongest survivors. This is why eventually, as the droughts got harsher the women started fighting as well. The weaker ones died and their children were put in jeopardy. The fights among the women actually grew so intense that they were overshadowing even the ones among the men. In this new system everyone fought and all were subject to constant danger for themselves and their children if they lost. The fate of the children proved out to be the most powerful motivator for the females who were willing to give it all to guarantee the survival of their progeny and this is how a new system of social bonding appeared. The groups where everyone fought and the women determined who will get what became known as trauruts and they became the most basic social structure of the Tuatauans. Actually, the Tuatauans were born out of the trauruts and they came to stay (in one form or another) throughout their history.