True. I really used to dread nothingness. That is until I started thinking about other options:
- We live in a simulation created by us in another/higher dimension/universe. Well, if this is something we engineered, then I read to think of what the actual higher dimension is like. It must be shit, if we made this as something better. I imagine a Matrix-like scenario. I don't want that.
- The Egg/hivemind training/split consciousness into all humans that once "ascended" combines back into one mega/superior conscience. Might be cool, but lonely.
- Into the multiverse/permanent DMT trip/multiple spirit realms that you can travel through. Might be interesting at first, but would probably get bored. Still better than most other options.
- Religious heaven/hell concepts. I can't think of anything worse. Hell would be suffering, and so would heaven without a bit of hedonism.
- The time slowing/replaying as you die concept I talked about earlier. Would probably be miserable if your circumstances of death weren't perfect.
- Living as a formless spirit, unable to interact with anything in any significant way. Horrible imo.
- Rebirth. Also not great.
No matter what I try to think of, if I remain objective, realistic and not hopeful and wanton, whatever I end up thinking of has some serious drawbacks. In the grand scheme of things, simply not existing anymore might actually be the simplest, easiest, most comforting thing. At least you can't suffer, can't be left desiring things you will never get. You don't want anything, you don't need anything.
At the same time... I think to myself... that can't be it right... How could I, a thinking, feeling being just... cease to exist so completely...
I don't know man.