Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

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Researching and writing on angels, found in Complete Magician Tables an interesting entry - The 64 Angel Wardens of the Seven Celestial Halls(Heavens?).

 

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Looking at the Mercury invocation from The Magicians Workbook by Savedow, and Frater S' Mercury Invocation as templates, five hours distracted time will not make for a great invocation in my opinion, even though my template with cut corners finished before or as the candle was about out (cannot burn all the way, since they are birthday candles on plastic tees pinned into the side of a tealights for stability). Frater S is a bit more detailed, and Savedow has step by step rituals called in a summarized steps for the Invocation version
I know I seem a bit obsessed, but it is a sideline project for aid, learning, and aptitude. My main project is Christopher's book, where I need to quickly master and prove competency 9f neophyte and earth ... This opens yesod up, and gets me working on more stuff. However, qabalah, geomancy, alchemy, earth elemental and element control have not been harnessed.

 

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It's interesting, Monday was Ps 51-55 and Prov 11, yesterday was 56-60/12, today is 61-65/13. Interesting how the days fell, Monday was on penitence and purification. Yesterday was enduring enemies, today is somewhat healing.
It would be interesting to know in these daily psalms and proverb, which Shem Angels correspond to the psalms read for the day, a chart could be made I suppose.

 

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First round of food was improvised and served, and people digging in. What was on the menu: Pigs in blankets, pretzel tots, queso dip, brocolli. Improvised: fire braised chicken, pretzel tots, Cajun edamame, queso dip.
Currently taking a break while hotel guests dig in.
Writing in Angelic Journal offline, Daily Archangel Invocations. Wrote defense angels in it, will write healing angels in it.

 

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Will have to finish work once home.
Final stretch of the four hour shift - half hour last call and cleanup.

 

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Home, kitty fed and happy. Listening to music to chill out a bit.

Researching Mercury invocations, as I would need to be ready in 45 min. Water and candle (orange) are ready to go. With intent to gnather magic, will use green personal water cup, objective orange cup. Will use Sandalwood oil and Frankincense incense (if I use it, my cat has asthma).

Will finish recording archangel invocations, and try to memorize oratory prayer and the archangel invocations.
Will finish the defense and healing angels.
Will finish enochian Earth Watchtower tablet, and start Air Watchtower tablet, and Tablet of Union, found box of colored pencils.

Will do adorations shortly as opening to invocation.

 

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Surprise surprise I know, Mercury Invocation held off.
Working on Earth Watchtower tablet shading/coloring tonight.

Before bed will record Archangel Invocations in my journal (offline) for Angelic Workings, as well as Healing Angels invocation info like Defense Angels (which need to be expanded on in journal, so perhaps point those pages to later pages with clearer and full info for the defense angels, then follow with the healing angels info for invocation.

I kind of get the coloring scheme now. It may not be perfect, it is paper and pencil after all, but it should work for the purposes of the Neophyte and Zelator Formulas and Rituals. Then within the next period of months, complete the Earth Pentacle design idea, Home Depot may be of help for a round copper plate and candles and solder, also paint and drop cloth for a magic circle. Michaels for clay and paint and any other details, gem shop for beaded crystals. Get athame for air dagger, and wooden handle, or wood handled double edge knife. Create Air Watchtower Tablet at that time.

Need to get serious with finances this month and next month, and start working toward resolving tax issues, filing, and entering a chapter 13 bankruptcy. All money matters need to be resolved in Malkuth.

Romance/sexuality. I have a snowballs chance in hell, but there are surprisingly a few good angels for this matter. I never realized sex was that necessary for living or godly power (look at monks), but there is sex magick. All perversities and sexual kinks need to be addressed before Yesod.

General health also needs to improve drastically, as well as stamina and endurance. I have nearly fainted at three circumambulations, with nine candles lit with incense in a dimmed room and tiny space to move. I can only imagine younger mages who have faced more serious fires in their temples and barely lived to tell the tale. Luckily. Or being in a room lit with only candles, in dodecahedron form or the like, its copies incense rolling where especially with Storax would require stamina and endurance to endure as these others have.
Within this week, need to get to the County Annex, and meet with folks to order prescription refills, I have been off of my medications for quite a few weeks now. Need to not drop the ball with them anymore, they are taking my matters (which have not changed any) less serious it seems to me. Depression and suicidal thoughts - also common in Malkuth and needs to be addressed and worked on.

So tests of Malkuth per the previous entry today on Gates of Malkuth.

 

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Listening to Guy Penrod, and thinking of my progress on my path, the song is The Revelation Song. He Reigns is also quite good.
Working on shading tablet. Raining outside with thunder and lightning.

 

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Shaded blocks partially shaded with Ebony Black color pencil, they need to be painted black mist likely. Unshaded squares have been penciled in with Ebony Black on White paper. The reason for paint would be top make the colored letters sharper to see while in mid ritual.

 

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Now begin the long work days, no four hour shift, no this is an eleven hour shift for the next three days, possibly Sunday as well if I can get a ride home for closing.
150 a day gross, thats what this shift is, as opposed to yesterdays 60 a night at StayBridge.
Now to not call off or be late, and try to go over the clock at both.
So, isn an hour need to be dressed in work outfit and be off to Kouzinas.
It is a tremendous hit and bit of suffering making 50 poor hour for a year and then being barred out of the industry, and forced to take on food service at 15 per hour if lucky. Very dirty pool. I see the attempt at control behind it all and am not pleased.
So, like an adult, I will pursue a different path, even though its a tremendous pain in the ass for some else personal insecurity.

 

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I have free education available to me, though financial aid is a cluster fudge for me atm. I think my chapter 13 bankruptcy filing will move that sludge along out of the pipes of my life.
I wanted to resolve it through work, but not on a chain gang style of work. That was a slap in the face for wanting to do the right thing.
Demons can setup men as kings, but could only serve me a McDonalds job, well fudge you Mr./Ms. Demon.

So back to education .... if I can actually get started before Im venerable that would be nice. I have three choices: Business Administratin (hate business with a passion), Childhood Ed (not a fan of kids), or Criminal Jutice. Not a fan of cops, but CJ it is with the goal of a Bachelors in Criminal Jutice, then onto a Masters degree in Anthropology, my pure choice there, what I really love to study.

 

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The money I make in the USA is not a good measure to compare to your wages in a different country, I try to survive UNDER the USA poverty line, taking it one day at a time with no plan for backup nor safety net anywhere.
The free education was available through a siblings focused hard work at her job, and is not comparable to some rich douche who just floats through life without a care like The Fool. She purposefully took that job as she loves children and teaching, and was a nurse at the school to start with, until being deemed qualified to be a teacher. She has a family and she and my brother in law work very hard to give them a comfortable life and prepare them for life at the same time. None of us are without issues.
So please dont take any of what I say as privileged in any way. We've busted our asses day in day out and just about worn out. I am, because I have nobody but my cat to comfort me by day or night.
We all have issues, my choice is to take magic as my partner in life, and try embarrassingly hard to make it pay off in the end, and if it doesn't, I gave it more than one hell of a try.

 

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All Right, lets get this started, will do adorations and dress for work, brush my teeth and be off.
Thursday, 4/14/2022 (4+5+6=15=6, Reciprocation). Ruling Planet for Day: Jupiter. Ruling Color: Blue.
Sleep/Dreams: Glory, hallelujah, got fair sleep. No dreams recalled.
Moon Phase/Transits: Have not looked at either, but will venture to say Luna is in Virgo, if not then it has progressed today to Libra.
Not a full moon yet.
Weather: Sunny and cool.
Diet/Exercise: Ate good last night at StayBridge. Will have a free gyro bowl with rice and all veggies today, and the next three days.
Mental Notes:
Physical Notes: Sore lower back, various pains in legs. Hand cramping yesterday. Congested cough.
Adorations:
Lord of the Universe: Morning adoration done.
Liber Resh Vel Helios: Morning, Afternoon adorations done, will complete other two when home.
Rituals:
QC/LBRP/QC
Tarot Contemplation Ritual: XXI The World (Saturn/Earth/Cosmic Consciousness)

Shem Angel of the Day: HAAIAH
26th – HAAIAH. His attribute is “Hidden God”. He corresponds to the holy divine
names of “Agdi” and “Abdi” in the language of the Sarazins. His ray commences from
the 126th degree up to the 130th degree inclusive, corresponding to the thirteenth
decade and to the angel called Aphruimis. He rules over the following days: 14th April,
25th June, 5th September, 16th November, 27th January. The invocation is done from
8:20am till 8:40am. The Divine Names are pronounced and the 145th verse of Psalm
118: “I cried with my whole heart; hear me, O Lord: I will keep thy statutes” (Clamavi in
toto corde meo, exaudi me Domine; justifications tuas requiram).
Works well with legal matters.
The bad angel rules over traitors, the ambitious and conspirators.

Archangel of the Day: Tzadkiel

 

[Jarhyn]

Will be aware and look for signs of Jupiter and Sol, hard to do at the U of M campus, but otherwise yellow and blue, and thinking on the positive qualities of Sol and Jupiter.

You live where now?

 

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You live where now?

Ann Arbor, MI

 

[Jarhyn]

Ann Arbor, MI

Heh, close. Wrong flank of the mitten!

 

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Where about?

 

[Jarhyn]

Where about?

The other U of M

 

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Ah, That's not that far. I don't have a driver's license due to a debt, so there's that. Let me think about it, I know some folks farther north. Maybe there's a chance we could meet up and discuss magic and whatnot.
I work open to close thurs-sat, on a mini break now.