Hi all I am looking for desperate help in my bizarre situation.
Hi Lex.
I currently live with absolutely no income but there is something controlling me.
I get random people to bring me food and clothes and such and it,s obvious to me that something is sending these people to me.
But this same magical thing is PREVENTING me from solving the problem.
Ok. Heard and understood.
And it's getting worse and worse.
The simple fact you have noticed the trend and that you're asking for help is a very good sign.
This thing decides everything for me it decides who I should hang out with and wants me to hang out with mostly troubled people and drug addicts,
I DON,T DO DRUGS.
Got it.
I,ve been like this for a lot of years.
Ok. It sounds like this is a big problem.
I went searching and I found the left hand path and I downloaded some books.
After reading I found I can only use sigil magic at the moment because I don,t have money to buy candles and stuff so I started doing that.
But...
I get NO RESULTS
So I don,t know what else to do.
Ah. You're looking for a perscription?
Do the left hand path really work or is this some kinda scam?
It
works for those who "
work-it". It's not a scam, but, it is often misunderstood. Certainly there are "scammers" who are on a left-hand-path. The "scam" is effective on those who are too eager and, forgive me, desperate. Desperation is fertile ground for manipulation.
And what do I need to do to get out of my situation?
Everyone is different. What works for me and others, may not work for you. Finding the right perscription to help you get out of this situation in some ways is going to be trial-and-error. A responsible healthy approach involves introducing a remedy in a small quantity where the potential for negative side-effects are known to be minimal. Then one looks for positive changes in the signs and symptoms as as well as any signs and symptoms for any negative side-effects.
If the one seeking help is desperate, they
can seek a cure-all, a panacea, and maybe they will find it. In some ways it makes sense to try a few of these remedies if they are well known to be harmless. But, I think it's important to be realistic and be aware that in life there is rarely a one-and-done solution to life's problems. If there was a one-size-fits-all solution, everyone would be healthy, happy, and successful all the time.
I wanna know why I am in this bizarre situation.
It is getting me in a lot of trouble that grows everytime
I need to get desperate help.
OK. The first thing I would recommend is breath-work ... breathing, just breathing. The reason I am recommending this as the first step is because finding the right solution tailored ( literally, tailored like a garment ) for you and your situation requires a sensitivity in yourself which is compromised by desperation. Being sensitive to yourself,
knowing yourself, is arguably the most important tool in the LHP toolbox. Cultivating this sensitivity has so many benefits for everyone. For some it comes naturally as an in born talent, but for many it is a skill which needs to be cultivated like a garden. Believe it or not, breathing, just simply breathing, cultivates this sensitivity.
Breath-work very often accomplishes both goals of increasing sensitivity and reducing desperation simultaneously. Breath-work is also foundational. It facilitates, encourages, and supports almost any occult practice. Even if you were not seeking help for a specific problem, this is a useful skill. But for now, I think it is a great place to start in helping you with the problems you are reporting.
With increased sensitivity and decreased desperation, the one seeking help is better equiped to accurately express the signs and symptoms they are experiencing to the practioner. Initially, this is a team effort. The one who is seeking help is getting help from others. From an LHP perspective, the ultimate goal is that seeker evolves into their own practioner. The patient becomes their own doctor. The individual becomes their own savior. This is accomplished through sensitivity and is actualized as knowing oneself.
While it's true that doctors often make the worst patients, a skillful LHP practioner is sensitive to themself, and knows themself so well that they are able to avoid and counter those problems flipping them into assets. One way to spot a "scammer" is that they will be setting up and encouraging a relationship of dependence in contrast to independence. The LHP is encouraging independence. True independence comes from sensitivity of not just oneself and knowing oneself, but sensitivity to the world around them, and understanding it. It begins with an inward directed awareness which develops into outward understanding.
There is potential for negative side-effects, so, it's important to know and understand those in advance before increasing one's sensitivity, but, these are rare. The likelyhood for a negative reaction increases for those who are drug-users ( past or present ), for those who have unresolved trauma in their life experiences, for those who are loners, lacking a community of family or friends, and for those who are lacking a daily routine.
Of these four risk factors, the second one is the most important. The last two are important to be aware of, but, need not interfere with one's pursuit especially when starting gradually. Having a community and a routine are more like life-lines which are useful in case of trouble. Every bird that learns to fly begins in an egg in a nest.
If you'd like to try it, all you need to do, is breathe and pay attention to the heart. The heart understands so much and so well, yet it is often ignored. Sensitivity to the heart, is sensitivity to oneself, sensivity to the surrounding world. This is
my recipe for breathing. Maybe try it and let me know how it feels? The goal is to do-it. Not just read about it, actually do-it and cultivate an inner-awareness, an inner sensitivity.
- Sit still. It doesn't matter where, except not while driving, but it is not lying down.
- Eyes are open, not closed.
- Face is forward. Jaw is relaxed. Head is tilted slightly down, just a tiny bit, so that the eyes pivot up slightly towards the eyebrows.
- Breathe.
- Follow the breath along its path with the mind.
That's it. The head position is important, but not vital. Relaxing the jaw is very important.
The breath begins at the entrance of the nose. Then it travels up, gently, grazing, briefly, against the inner-bottom of the forehead. Then it travels across the back of the throat. Down it goes opposite the spine, into the belly, pressing out and down on the gut. The belly expands like a balloon. There is a slight pause, then the breath is released. Up it goes past the heart, along the ribs, to the back of the throat again. This time it flows below the palette, across the tongue, between the teeth, over the lips, and out. The breath is complete. It starts with the nose, and ends with the mouth. Then repeat.
What's supposed to happen is the breathing naturally becomes deeper and fuller. The heart should slow and become calm. This calmness should spread over the face, and into the mind. The focus of the eyes should widen to include the peripheral vision while simultaneously the vision becomes clearer. There's no need to spend a lot of time doing this. A little bit goes a long way. One to three minutes of daily practice, at the same time, in the same place, in the same way, will develop into the capability to clear and calm the body, heart, and mind with a single deep breath.
If the opposite occurs, stop, stand up. Gently shake your head, maybe squeeze your eyes closed tightly for a moment. Maybe flex and straighten the legs. What ever feels natural, go ahead and do it. Instead of standing, maybe stretch out and lie down, or curl into a fetal postion. There are no wrong answers. The goal is to pay attention to what you are feeling in yourself. Things to watch for are increasing heart-rate, instead of the expected slowing of the heart-rate. Also, watch for increasing tension in the face, shoulders, and hands instead of increased relaxation. It's OK to begin with tension. That's completely natural and normal. What's supposed to happen is the tension is reduced. This reduction of tension is introduced intentionally only in the jaw at first. Then, it is supposed to spread naturally. If the trend is increasing tension, then I recommend stopping and, strangley, encouraging that tension.
So, maybe let's start with this? Breath-work. Breathe, just breathe. If a state of calm spreads through your body, heart, and mind, then maybe we can move on to the next step which is getting into a little more detail of ways to solve the problems you are reporting. It's possible, and it's not uncommon, that you
already have the solutions to your own problems in your own heart / soul / psyche. It could be that through this breath-work the solutions will reveal themself, and poof, like magic, your on your way to greener pastures.
If the breath-work does not produce a state of calm, and does not help to reveal solutions which are already embedded and interwoven within yourself, then maybe it would be good to maybe explore why not.
Either way, this is a good method for moving towards a solution to this specific set of problems and also helping in almost any occult practice which is of interest now or in the future.
