Hi,
I want to start out by saying I speak this in the most respectful way possible and mean no offense to anyone, it’s just my current mindset I’m trying to actively change. Ive experimented with a lot of religions and occult practices ranging from energy work, nlp, and hypnosis all the way to order of the golden dawn, demonology, and . Point being, over the past 15 years, I’ve read/experimented a lot in the field of the supernatural. However, I have been unable to convince myself of anything existing outside of the realm of physical reality, despite my best efforts to for a lack of a better term, “brainwash.” it seems my whole goal in life for quite some time now has Simply been to have a spiritual side and have a knowing that something exists that I cannot see.
With that being said, would anyone have any suggestions on how to train yourself to feel/see/hear/know non-physical world does exist? I’ve went as far as to travel to known “haunted” sites and graveyards after midnight etc to try to hunt ghosts down and even do superstitious things like walking on cracks and under ladders just to try to get a feeling that something will happen. I would say my biggest enemy is my mind itself. I’ve tried my best to perform method acting when actually performing magick but it seems I’m not able to fake the unconscious part of the mind to really believe.
How would one actually “trick” themselves into believing something that they feel like is not actually real/true despite how much they tell themself consciously it is? Because each time I try something and nothing happens, it feels like it just reinforces that “ spirituality doesn’t exist and is just self-delusion of the mind” mentality.
I want to start out by saying I speak this in the most respectful way possible and mean no offense to anyone, it’s just my current mindset I’m trying to actively change. Ive experimented with a lot of religions and occult practices ranging from energy work, nlp, and hypnosis all the way to order of the golden dawn, demonology, and . Point being, over the past 15 years, I’ve read/experimented a lot in the field of the supernatural. However, I have been unable to convince myself of anything existing outside of the realm of physical reality, despite my best efforts to for a lack of a better term, “brainwash.” it seems my whole goal in life for quite some time now has Simply been to have a spiritual side and have a knowing that something exists that I cannot see.
With that being said, would anyone have any suggestions on how to train yourself to feel/see/hear/know non-physical world does exist? I’ve went as far as to travel to known “haunted” sites and graveyards after midnight etc to try to hunt ghosts down and even do superstitious things like walking on cracks and under ladders just to try to get a feeling that something will happen. I would say my biggest enemy is my mind itself. I’ve tried my best to perform method acting when actually performing magick but it seems I’m not able to fake the unconscious part of the mind to really believe.
How would one actually “trick” themselves into believing something that they feel like is not actually real/true despite how much they tell themself consciously it is? Because each time I try something and nothing happens, it feels like it just reinforces that “ spirituality doesn’t exist and is just self-delusion of the mind” mentality.
