Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

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Thinking...
Horse and buggy it is for me.

A rope circle and duct tape to square the circle and for the triangle.

A mirror and black spray paint.
Draw/paint my own tarot deck.

Make my own Staffs (two were given to me by nature, one a good longbow material but straightens out, the other serpentine or lightning like.

Daggers - Survivalist Knife and white Butterfly Knife.
Perhaps Bo and Jo staff, if the money's there at least one Sword.

Reorganize and reposition furniture to create more space.
Wash and dry and store summer clothes except what's required and a few tshirts.
Wash and dry and apply bedding.
Wash and dry fall and winter clothes and hang in closet.

Store everything in closet. And close closet doors. And hang West Banner. Water Banner and West Enochian Watchtower tablet on closet doors via magnets.
Created all tablets, hang all and East Banner by magnets or thumbtacks, create tablet of union.
Paint wands and staffs and wand.
Make Tau robe out of black cotton, bell sleeves and cowl.
Paint lantern red and get small pillar candle.
Make Pillars of dark and light.

In short, order dwelling, create space and lines, altar in center and Temple in dwelling and indwelling.

Hang elemental glyphs in quarters.
Conescrate all weapons and altar.
Create and consecrate cross and triangle.
Procure rope for circle. Make circle scraps contains names and symbols placed between the two circles, and sash to affix lamens to, make neophyte lames for rope sash.
Get reliable censers and candle holders.
Get black candles.

Do daily work.

Hit food pantry.
Hit goodwill store for dress shoes and a suit.
Get glasses pair realigned for frames.
Be well groomed daily.
Keep thought and speech clean and positive.

Do server work and coding daily. Learn PHP, C, Assembler and Python at expert level. Learn Java and JavaScript. Learn MySQL and Nginx and Apache. Learn configurations for server purpose. Learn Docker and ISOs. Follow CIS, NIST, NSA, SANS and other docentation and standard and configuration. Install SUSE or Kali on non networkable Laptop or get networking working with a complete ISO.

 

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And of course none of this will get done until I can chill after my finances are set.

Whoever is behind all of this is an asshole. A bullying pretentious asshole who has never walked a mile in anyone's shoes.

So I came to the conclusion screw it all that's not my job.

So I take the bad with the good. Something they can't do.

 

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I should chill on my journaling online I guess. Since I've been shoved into a realm of silence and solitude, a perfect setting for magic to finally occur. And the aholes won't know a thing. Or at least I won't care anymore.

 

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So a magic shopping list, and a mundane shopping list. Likewise with a timetable and calendar.
Create three sets of time, mundane, magic, work commute.
Allocate what's needed for each on the cheap.
Just do it as a daily suggestion.
Memorize planetary hours chart.
Pay attention to the Farmers Almanac.
Do what was back a couple posts that was a fairly lengthy post.
And see what remains.

 

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Well, got some things off my chest to my family and doing clothes and bedding at their place, so some ideas and one goal task done.
There was no magickal work done.

 

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I will get an idea of the Cardinal directions and do the solar adorations and pentagram and middle Pillar silently in the shower.
That will fulfill the neophyte Formula. Brought my journals and Christopher's book, along with my deck of tarot cards and Bible.

 

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Arrived at parents place and getting some laundry done. As for the freebie clothes, I'm going to leave the task of washing clothes to the new owners.

Had a cup of coffee with my Dad and some good bonding time and talking about relationships.

I guess I can say my magickal goal of clothes done is nearing completion..Winter clothes will get washed and dried soon. Mostly sweaters and heavy shirts.

Brought main journals, will take time tonight to get organized and map out candle rituals for aid in the tasks at hand.

Other than reading Christopher tonight, taking a days break from reading The Golden Dawn.

Card of the day is X Wheel of Fortune. Kaph. Fist. 20. Tenth letter of Hebrew Alphabet. Jupiter. Chesed to Netzach.

 

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I guess I can say that in my reading of 1st Kings 4-10, we see the handoff of the throne, the death of David and the rise of King Solomon and the building of the temple and the ark.

So, in my former day or twos planning, the magickal stuff and organization of my dwelling must be done for the sake of the Outer Courtyard or house of the LORD, while the real building of the temple and house of the LORD is imternal

 

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Analyzing last four tarot readings. One on the laundry issue, today on how to deal with the students.

 

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Read Psalm 119 Kaph but will have to read it again for esoteric meanings.
Psalms 25:10 illustrates Kaph.
Reading 1st Kings 10 and Revelation 10 even though I know they're rabbit hole material. Will read Psalms 34:10 again, psalms 33 and 38 are unrelated.

 

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Located west, even with the clouds in the sky given the light pattern from the sun.
Will do adorations and Neophyte Formula before bed, in a whisper.
Have goals in offline journal, so will sort through what's needed tonight and do reading from Kabbalah, Magic and the Great Work of Self-Transformation (Christopher) before sleeping.

 

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Reading 1st Kings 11, Revelation 11, Psalm 119 Lamed, Ps 25:11, 33:11, 34:11 and 38:11.
The card of the day is obviously Key XI, Justice. Lamed. Ox Goad/whip/instruction. 30.
What strange gods have I worshipped, what high places have I set above the Lord God? What therefore is my end?
In Christ Jesus I trust and hope.

 

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The Justice card is associated with or assigned to Libra. Air. Saturn (The World) is exalted, Venus (The Empress) as ruler of Libra.
Libra and Justice point primarily to balance via the scales. Also strength and punishment via the sword held aloft, indicating dealing with equilibrium and karma.

 

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At least laundry, Solar Adorations and Neophyte Formula was done.
One goal I can cross off.
I would have thought meditation and writing down recipes from Rivas would've gotten done, but I obviously needed good rest.
Going home shortly to settle in, take care of kitty, and do my work.
Also need to get a basic set of instructions for server work on Thursday put together

 

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I see a disturbing trend of suicide.
The disadvantaged and trans are highest risk cases.
I've tried taking my life multiple times through different methods, but held back. My love for my family was my obstacle in succeeding.
I have found over the years to consciously think of something else to combat suicidal thought.
I've been there in the dark, self loathing and thinking of all the problems I had.
My ability to shift mental gears got me past the thought patterns.
Keep looking up, the sun will eventually come up.

 

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Last night drew a new layout for my dwelling. In the northwest area shall be a nine foot circle, squared off around the circle of rope by duct tape, and a duct taped triangle outside the circle. The altar will be in the center of the circle drawn double by rope. So that taped to the rope will be sharpied paper to hold symbols and divine names.
Wrote out a magickal shopping list.
Prepare a rite for Fall Equinox and Winter Solstice.
Two to three months left. Time to get to work before the Gates of Janus open up for me to begin Zelator for six months.

 

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While I did not look for magickal supplies there, while at Meijer picking up cereal, coffee, and cat treats, found and bought both a pair of U of M sweatpants, and a nice leather bound journal (to be THE Magick journal for my work).
Also brought home was Dad's old collapsing lawn chair with a shoulder strap quiver/carrying container. Will use for astral projection and other exercises requiring a chair.

 

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Switched from cigarettes to nicotine pouches. May not be healthy, but greater lung power. Throat to be kept in mind as well.

 

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Readings/Work Through as a Grimoire:
Kabbalah, Magic and the Great Work of Self Transformation (not including the required side reading books)
Candle Magick - A Spellbook for Good and Evil
The Golden Dawn (7th Ed)
Book 4
Magick in Theory and Practice
Magick
The Vision and the Voice
Celtic Golden Dawn
Wild Magic
Druid Power
The Magicians Workbook
Magickal Trilogy (Quareia)
Planetary Magic
Ars Angelorium
72 Angels of Magic
Magickal self defense books
Financial Sorcery
Words of Power
Magic Black and White
Theosophy books as well as Freemasonry

I know I'm missing a few on here.
It's also a little disordered.