Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

Work went well, and we either had a ninja in the midst, or a ghost/phantom with a purse that entered the kitchen after I left the kitchen to clock out. Front desk and I ran to catch them, but nobody was there, but she saw them clearly on the cameras. That means they could be recording.
Cute kids at work and on the shopping trip, cute as in their words and expressions. I may not be a father, but I am a son and an uncle and a brother.
While at work, wrote out at least four step by step rituals in easy to read lettering.
Anyway. Shopping trip, a walk with weight and home now with a happy gravy-vicious kitty. And a pot of coffee brewing.
Did adorations outside of work. Did not have a chance for a LBRP. Did however do a standing Middle Pillar.
Am going to get in a habit of being up at 6am every morning. To bed at 12am latest. This gives me room to do stuff without sleep being in the way.
Meditation. That is what The Star (Tarot Contemplation Ritual) is trying to tell me. Though that is a path touching Luna.
Need to get into loving to do both the Pentagram Rituals and the Hexagram Rituals as well.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

Posted on my status, but again here, the Hawkins are brilliant, and despite it being gospel, its great. Its great in any case. Even if you're not into gospel, give it a listen, cause this is good contemporary gospel music.

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DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

"YAH, ADONAI, SHADDAI EL CHAI, I ask you to invisibly lay your hands upon these consecrated cards of art, to deliver a true and faithful message to the answer I seek: Should I pursue magic, which area shall I play a role in?"
Split Hexagram Spread (per Modern Magick)

Greater Spiritual Influence: XIX. The Sun. Lord of the Fire of the World. Sol. Resh. 200.
Lesser Spiritual Influence: XV. The Devil. Lord of the Gates of Matter. Capricorn. Ayin. 70.
Spiritual Advice: II. The High Priestess. Priestess of the Silver Star. Luna. Gimel. 3.

Unconscious Desires: XIII. Death. Lord of the Gates of Death. Scorpio. Nun. 50.
Conscious Desires: VII. The Chariot. Lord of the Triumph of Light. Cancer. Cheth. 8.
Practical Advice: 0. The Fool. Spirit of the Aether. Air. Aleph. 1.

Final Outcome: XX. Judgement. Spirit of the Primal Fire. Fire. Shin. 300.

Gematria, first triangle: 273.
Gematria, 1st Delta plus FO: 573
Gematria, second triangle: 59.
Gematria, 2nd Delta plus FO: 359
Gematria, total triangles: 332.
Gematria, total: 632.

Had a thought regarding the cards, on Resh and Ayin, what is the card that equals Sol in Capricorn, and meditate on that card. That would be the Four of Pentacles, Lord of Earthly Power, Sol in Capricorn 20-30deg. Chesed of Assiah/Heh Final. Forneus, Cimejes, Keveqiah and Mendial. Conversely, Luna in Capricorn, lets try to find that - not found, as in Capricorn the deans are in order Jupiter, Mars, Sol.
One Kerubic key (XIII Death, Scorpio), two Cardinal keys (VII The Chariot, Cancer; XV The Devil, Capricorn), two elements (Air, Fire); two planets - Sol, Luna. Marriage of the Sun and Moon? Hierogamos? Black Alchemy? Earth Alchemy? Winter Alchemy?
Lunar Magick and Air Magick; Qabbalistic magic focusing on Gimel and Aleph, follow Gad.

Witchcraft/Lunar Magic and Solar/Celestial Magick, particularly Cardinal then Kerubic. The Path of Fire. Spiritual and Physical Alchemy.

Top of Deck - IV. The Emperor. Son of the Morning, Chief Among the Mighty. Aries. Heh. 5. (637)
Bottom of Deck -- XVIII. The Moon. Ruler of Fluxand Reflux, Chid of the Sons of the Mighty. Pisces. 100 (737)

DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

Correction: Bottom of Deck was XI. Justice. The Holder of the Balances. Libra. Lamed. 30.
Total Gematria: 667.
That makes all four cardinal signs present.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

May try a dual LRP, one in the standard directions, then in the mid angles of the four directions, drawing kerubic symbols In the main four pentagrams, and four cardinal symbols in the other four directions. Sort of an octogram.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

Tuesday, Mars Day. Approximately Midnight. In front of ancestral plate, my family name crest framed sits atop granite, shungite and black tourmaline, with lapis lazuli, a quarter touching the front bottom, and a gold rope wrapped around the crest.

The meditation was on the crest. The crest largely has a helmet, five arrow, and red-yellow striped shield.
My thought was on the motto and the crest, and what it means, in terms of courage, bravery, self reliance, independence, building, endurance, stamina, intelligence, understanding, knowledge, wisdom. Any military men? Sons? My ancestry traces back to the mid 1500s and is still searching. My family name ends with me, but Cameron(s) will live on.
My father and his military service that I know about. My great grandfather, my grandfather. Neither of them were military, unless my great grandfather served in Scotland. My uncles on my Moms side and my Mom, I think all escaped the draft and didn't serve that I know of. My great Granddad may have served in Ireland.
My bravery and courage as a kid, my endurance and stamina as a young professional, my decline and wisdom as a middle aged.
So what shall I make of my name?

I felt a sense of bravery and courage, though hard to keep anger and wrath away as a feeling, as say Geburah on the Tree of Life does.
I felt energized again, I saw the white core candle with the red external color blend in alternating pink and red. Pachad. Strength or Fear.

That's the spirit of the day's energy.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

A Martial day indeed underway, conflicts with people I dont know, very black and white thinking, and police surveillance and action. Likely paid a wellness check or arrested someone as no EMT or FD showed. Realized fear controls me, I fear nearly everything, most of all getting hurt or ending up in Hell after death, homelessness, poverty, etc. Been to a couple of those and dont care to revisit. Going to write out Tarot notes from The Golden Dawn.
With wand and dagger in hands, did morning Lord of the Universe adoration, then the midnight to afternoon Liber Resh Vel Helios. Realize I need to manage my time better. Did QC/LRP/QC, and will do MP after the Tarot notes as energy of the celestial kind is greatly welcomed by me.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

Okay, the nitpickers are back on my case, so fudge them, the fourth rule it is for me.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

Looking at my homemade candle holders, if not used right away, gravity forces them to lean.
For this reason, I was delighted to find candles in all colors of standard taper and pillar candles, as well as incense and candle holders, even close to a seven branched candlestick but falling short at five. Some four. Lanterns. All colors, including black.
I mean, I love my spell candles, birthday candles are great for shirt and powerful exercises or meditations. Approx 10-15 min to burn, longer with dressed bday candles.
Taller chime candles are nice as well, as they are not white candles with a colored exterior and also silver and gold candles.
The problem is is that tees exist for the bday candles, but none for chimes, unless you do as I did, and make your own somehow. I wasn't expecting to combat gravity with my suggestion, so yeah, use the candle immediately, there is a risk of flareup fire from putty or used bubble gum, so keep that in mind.
Taper candle holders dont carry as much risk, except for being knocked over, particularly on carpet with no horizontally flat surface.
Fudge it, the more I think of it, the more a flat piece of wood such as a 1970s card table top, painted circle on it, altar in the middle and drilled holes for candle sizes at quarters and sub quarters. Even enough for a dekagram or do dekagram around the circle. would have to be at least 6x6. For fire safety and circumambulations between the candles and the altar within the circle. So maybe more like 10x10, and art will fit in this rectangular room of mine.getting it through the doors could be an issue. maybe it folds and has hinges in the center. Fudge it, drop cloth and metal plated with clay candle holders perhaps.
Next week I get a PO Box to start receiving Amazon shipments of books and supplies. Each hundred goes to rent or savings, the rest may be split for temple supplies and savings.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

An hour til I have to leave for work, might as well write down a few things to mull over at work, I might start an air tablet on yellow paper tonight at work.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 10, 2022

A very martial day from hiking six blocks to ensure i got on the bus, arrived an hour early, criticized by my manager for a few things, one completely on me. But still got four menu items together and out ontime.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 11, 2022

Definitely weird night. Glad to be home by myself, free from harm or foul.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 11, 2022

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DiLoco_DelEted · May 11, 2022

Did evening and midnight adorations; both Lord of the Universe and Liber Resh Vel Helios.
Did QC/LRP/QC; lacked ending visualization, felt watched and heard mockery. Of human variety Im sure.

Practicing Heart Flame exercise. Will do Middle Pillar upon completion of that for 40 minutes.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 11, 2022

What to expect being a student of magick:
Split Hexagram Spread
Greater Spiritual Influence: VIII. Strength. Leo. Leader of the Lion, Daughter of the Flaming Sword. Teth. Serpent. 8.
Kundalini, the Serpent-Force
Breaking the Lower Self
Lesser Spiritual Influence: XV. The Devil. Capricorn. Lord of the Gates of Matter, Child of the Forces of Time. Ayin. Eye/Fountain. 70.
Breaking of Material Bondage
Spiritual Advice: I. The Magician. Mercury. The Magus of Power. Beth. House. 2.
Building up of skill and power, Self Consciousness. Mastering self/thought.
Unconscious Desires: XIII. Death. Scorpio. Lord of the Gates of Death, Child of the Great Transformers. Nun. Fish. 50.
Change, transformation
Conscious Desires: XVIII. The Moon. Pisces. Ruler of Fluxand Reflux, Chid of the Sons of the Mighty. Qoph. Back of Head. 100.
Organization
Practical Advice: II. The High Priestess. The Priestess of the Silver Star. Gimel. Camel. 3.
Subconsciousness, duplication.
Final Outcome: III. The Empress. Daughter of the Mighty Ones. Daleth. Door. 4.
Creative Imagination
Crossing the abyss from the path on the tree?

Top of Deck: V. The Hierophant. Taurus. Magus of the Eternal Gods. Vav. Nail. 6.
Bottom of Deck: XVII. The Star. Aquarius. Daughter of the Firmament, Dweller between the Waters. Tzaddi. Fishhook. 90 (unless a final).

Gematria: Total not counting deck : 237
Reduction: 2+3+7=12=1+2=3. Same as Final Outcome key number.

Interpretation:
1. Alchemy, conquering the lower nature and pulling down the higher self.
2. Materialsm and life issues, perhaps money or black magic.
3. Mastery of the self and mind, occult skill and wisdom, use of the four laws. Zelator? Practicus?
4. Change, a drastic change is desired. Depression issues, and health issues, so mundanely not a good omen.
5. Vulnerability in the face of danger, guided by the light of the moon.
6. Repitition, duplication, use of the law and cross, moon magic perhaps. Yesod?
7. Love and war, use of creative energy or imagination, fertility magic, love magic. Philosophus.

Hierophant in GD subject matter is very telling, and meditation is what I should be doing. Sound or Hearing and Meditation as guiding cards ...

DiLoco_DelEted · May 11, 2022

Tarot Contemplation Ritual - IV. The Emperor. Aries. Son of the Morning, Chief Among the Mighty. Heh. Window. 5.

Yesterday was full of irritations, yet kept my cool for the most part, and have to work within order, sight and management, all-seeing.
Window, vision and reflection. To see and perhaps not be seen. Invisibility to a slight degree?

DiLoco_DelEted · May 11, 2022

Reading/Plans:
1. Psalms 51-55 for today (5x the day of month gives the last psalm to read, so subtract four and start from there up to the last)
Proverbs: Proverbs 11.
2. Useful links continued.
3. Writing out Tarot key details for majors, courts and minors from the Book T, Divination, and Tree of Life as Projected in a Solid Sphere material. Doing for all Majors first, labeling them, then courts, labeling them, minors last, labeling them; all the while written down on paper.
4. Kaballah, Magic, and the Great Work of Self Transformation -- Double check recorded steps for The Neophyte Formula, write out steps for Zelator Formula.
5. Replies to threads put into action.
6. Heart Flame Exercise.
7. Sleep.

Some steps might get skipped, depending on alertness and stamina. Though I do have to take my medications, so I might be fighting sleep at some point.

I realized I dont check BALG anymore, as I was pushed off and banned anyway, so dealt with that, dont really miss it though it was interesting.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 11, 2022

Minus Interpretations of cards and star groups, 3 is nearly complete - with star groups should be complete unless interpretation is necessary.
Undertaking 1 right after I pet a kitty. 2, 6.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 11, 2022

Music break -

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A meditation or two before bed. Have to be up by noon. Or before preferably.

DiLoco_DelEted · May 11, 2022

Did some required reading last night.

Tried Heart Flame exercise upon waking or shortly after. Being less "cold", more compassionate, more kind, more attentive.

Did morning Lord of the Universe adoration and morning Liber Resh Vel Helios adoration. Felt energized and focused.

Built rope circle and stood east of altar within circle and tried the LBRP. Could visualize eyes open the lines of the pentagram and "seeing" the preceding ones/being aware of them there. Could not visualize the archangels, it felt, flat. Finished anyway.

Worked on my "Book "T"
Will start Geomancy Book tonight

Arranged altar for a Mercury/Raphael working tonight during Mercury hour if possible. May be home by 9:30 from work.
Will be reading and reflecting on Psalms 51-55, then 56-60, then Proverbs 11 and 12 for yesterday and todays reading and reflection for day.
Heart Flame exercise will come as second and second to last step, the first temple opening and meditation.
Will sprinkle sea salt around circle during circling, and salt water around circle as preliminary banishing, followed third by LBRP and third to last a LBRP. Final step banishing and closing temple and banishing again, then Neophyte Formula as LBRP will be final banishing, leaving right into Middle Pillar. Will work on Neophyte Exercises this week.

Will be keeping an offline journal as well.

Will follow and read links sent to me to be a tad more educated and able. Will also do Heart Falem exercise during bus commute and slow periods at work.

Found Raphaels Seal.