Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

There was some good that went on yesterday, and there will be some good that will go on today and tomorrow.
Hallelujah anyhow.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Thinking back about how ive been treated by others. I won't forget.

I won't forget those who've been kind to me.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

You see Vandheer and related folks. It's not like I can really do anything about it. So I'm not surprised you make yourselves known. It's not like bullies ever have a conscience .. or ever will.
I know I'm wasting my breath, but at least im making it known that I know what's been going on.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Must keep in mind that psychopaths won't care. It's beneath them to not be reptilian.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Must also keep in mind hell will never serve me, demons won't ever be my friends (they certainly haven't helped me at all), I don't want to be someone other than me, and nobody is apparently going to help me aside from me. So yeah, it is about me.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

So. Piss poor day, tomorrow must be different starting with tonight.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Imma try no magic whatsoever ever and see if it improves my lot in life.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Yes. Magic and loss. A huge flop with nothing redeeming about it to me.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Wondering if days of magickal disillusionment occurs in a pattern of specific days, hours, planets etc.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Thursday 8.11.2022 (7) Blue Jupiter
Sleep: Scattered. Not good for epileptics such as myself.
Dreams: None
Moon Phase: currently dgaf
Transits: currently dgaf
Weather: currently dgaf
Mental Notes - none
Physical Notes - none
Meditations - none
Adorations - none
Rituals - none
CoD: XIII Death
IChing - none
All thanks to LHP.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Was reading Psalm 119 Teth yesterday, and reading 119 Nun now. Serpent, fish.
Seems to be relaying food chain to me.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Conflict with family. Just what I needed.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Hallelujah anyhow

 

[Yazata]

Wondering if days of magickal disillusionment occurs in a pattern of specific days, hours, planets etc.

Might be interesting to investigate

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

I may have spoke too soon. May need to light some candles and incense tonight.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Fudge it. Just roll with it like I've had to do since the onset of the pile of shit in my monetary life.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

I fail to understand exactly what went wrong, when and how and why as well.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

Put key XIII at top middle of keys 1-6.
Below keys 1-6 are keys 12-7.
Why?
To see what about the two keys other than the numbers associate with that key.
So far a few insights, but nothing earth shattering.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

One interesting aspect is thirteen cards laid out.
Looked at the astrology, the planetary factors. A few interesting ones involving Saturn and Mars.
One that struck my eye was key 2 and 11. There is life and contentment in key 2, the lover of the law, but the death aspect is shown in key 11, the sterile judge. Without key 9, key 4 fuels key 13, but there is also the aspect of key 9 guiding the step of Nun.

 

[Diluculo_DelFuego]

A failure I may be. The question is, should I be a bold failure?