Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

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So, a fairly successful week will have been handled. Mundanely.
Friends and family contributed.

 

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On my reading:
I have come across a lot of material I need to filter, however on the course of reading for today, I did read Hodson (skimmed entire book, re-read up to Chapter Four) and Greer (skimmed entire book). I will go back and make notes on each and a report (think of it as one of the Library category posts, Review, thats it, thats the ticket). Agrippa -- found index for his books within the first book after notes and salutations. Found some new docs on Hindu Qabalah, Hindu Divination, Theosophy Docs, Besant Docs, Mysticism.

 

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Am about to get back to Greers book and list out basic notes, same with Hodson Chaps 1-4. I have five days to make this happen. By now I know I can pick up pennies or tarot cards and cast a geomantic chart. Casting the chart, knowing the figures, knowing the elements planets and houses, and knowing how to interpret - I guess one topic a day to master to my own level.

For example, I already knew about the flat chart used for astrology, which is used in Vedic/Indian astrology as well, the shield chart I came across within the last decade, and need to understand both charts. I understand the concept of the mothers, the daughters, the nieces, the witnesses and judge.

 

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Changed bedding, reorganized my bed a tad (its a storehouse for all notebooks, art projects and such Im working on at any time.
A bit of cat hair, otherwise clean. Next laundry load to be: Comforter, electric blanket, towel, washcloths/towels, bath robes.
Next load to be, most likely end of this week, two loads: Work clothes, casual (spring/summer) clothes.
Fall/inter clothes can be washed and dried and stored away for Fall, at a later date, perhaps next month. Then it shall all be done and stored or donated.

Next object to tackle: Closet organization. Furniture needs are now imminent. Storage/filing cabinet, chairs, card table (folding), lantern, four small tables, bookcase. Futon optional.

 

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Break time from HF and reading.

 

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Friday Jun 3, 2022 (6+3+6=15=6, Beauty). Ruling Planet: Venus. Ruling Archangel: Haniel. Color: Green.
Sleep: Fair
Dreams: Chose to recall but no recall.

Moon Phase:
Cancer 25d47'

Moon: 13.6%

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Transits:
Luna: 25d47' Can
Mercury: 26d05' Tau
Venus: 6d48' Tau
Sol: 12d49' Gem
Mars: 7d01' Ari
Jupiter: 4d07' Ari
Saturn: 25d15' Aqu
Pluto: 28d19 Cap R
Neptune: 25d16' Pis
Uranus: 16d25' Tau
Weather:
49d F, Sunny
Day 79d F, Night 47d F

Diet: Turkey sandwich with BBQ sauce on White, Goobers and Ritz, Coffee
Exercise: None today yet
Mood: Fair

Mental Notes: Malkuth day 3. Need to master basic Geomancy knowledge today. Next four days then can be practice and advanced theory. Raise sub scales for subtle bodies using HF.

Physical Notes: None.

Adorations:
LotU Morning
LRVH Midnight-Morning
Grade signs given.

Rituals:
Body Awareness
Breath Awareness
Relaxation Ritual
Flame in the Heart
Neophyte Formula
Zelator Formula
Flame in the Heart

Meditations:
Stones

Reading: Everything

 

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Changed bedding, reorganized my bed

Looks like a Hartmann grid crossing under your bed.

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How did I come to be so discriminating for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to be so active for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to be so peaceful for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to know my place in Malkuth in all areas of my life?
How did I come to bring my physical body under self-control in all areas of my life?

Etc - daily repetition followed by corresponding physical acts.

But not sure how this magic formula works ... except through repetition fo a mantra or affirmation until embedded in the SubConscious.

Keys to study for the Weeks exercise from Tarot Fundamentals, would be XVIII, XX and XXI. Each of these every week through June.
XVIII: Organization - Law of Suggestion (VIII) through direct activity of attention (I).
"This week begin the practice of reviewing your day's activities just before going to sleep. Record your gains and failures in your diary. Your attainments are steps in your progress toward Self-realization. Your failures warn you what to avoid in the future.
Never muse long on your failures. Remember that what we call 'sin' is nothing but 'missing the mark'. Do not worry. Worry is concentratedion on the negative appearances of life. If you are given to worry, then you possess the ability to concentrate. Change the polarity of you thoughts and emotions.. Before you fall asleep, impress subconsciousness with the most positive images of good you can fashion. Persist in this practice. You will sow seeds which subconsciousness will build into a new and better bodily structures."

XX. Revelation.
"This week try to practice SILENCE. Speak as little as you can, keep your emotions under control, and above all, try to make your thoughts quiet. Notice that this conserves energy for useful endeavors. Continue this practice, the rest of your life.

XXI. The World. World/Cos,ic Consciousness
Live life well-lived, realizing and attaining heaven on earth here and now. Make this your goal, to enter into it. Devote yourself;lf with all your heart to it, and, like thousands who have gone this way before you, you shall be among those who tread the joyous measures of the Dance of Life."

How did I come to be so discriminating for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to be so active for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to be so peaceful for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to know my place in Malkuth in all areas of my life?
How did I come to bring my physical body under self-control in all areas of my life?
How did I come to Meditate every day?

Affirmations said, now to carry through with acts where letting every act be an act of love, whether thought, word or deed.

 

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Will check this out, thanks!! The only thing I was aware of under my bed was a ward as a hand drawn Mercury Pentagram Pentacle placed under my bed, apex up toward my head to the East.

 

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On my reading, need to master basic Geomancy today. Including casting a chart and basic knowledge. Interpretation and sample readings as well as advanced material covered next four days, then onto Alchemy. (I think that is the next subject I listed), then Kaballah, then basic Planets and Houses.

Then Jul (Yesod/Foundation/Luna/Air/Levanah), first week - Aspects in Astrology
Second week - Mapping pros and cons of each sign and planet, and comparing to natal chart
Third week - Astrology review, Astral basics
Fourth week - Mind control

Path exercises from Case Tarot Fundamentals for Yesod will include Tav, Samekh, Resh, and Tzaddi.

 

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How did I come to be so discriminating for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to be so active for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to be so peaceful for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to know my place in Malkuth in all areas of my life?
How did I come to bring my physical body under self-control in all areas of my life?
How did I come to Meditate every day?

Affirmations said, now to carry through with acts where letting every act be an act of love, whether thought, word or deed.

XVIII or Qoph, Organization, is said to the the back of the head, corresponding possibly to pineal gland and stem.
For this reason, by reviewing day before and current day before bed and recording gains and losses, is essentially hindsight, reflection, and introspection. Black-White mirror exercise per Bardon. Pisces.

XX or Shin, Revelation is to be the fourth rule/law and most potent, that of Silence. Consider relationship to Saturn and Silence. Elemental Fire.

XXI or Tav, is Cross or Mark, just as we dont worry about missing the mark per XVIII, the fact remains there is one. That we have to find through Tav. Seal, mark, cross. Make the mark, carry your cross, get sealed by God. World/Cosmic Consciousness. Saturn/Elemental Earth.

 

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Adorations and Neo Formula done. Found that by Qaballistic Cross, extending arms out like the ross of Calvary, wand in hand, visualization improved. Vibrated divine names. Grade signs given with adorations, not the Formula.
Flame in the Heart done before QC in form of Calvary Cross/Shining Cross.
Will do in depth BA/BA/RR/HF. That should increase awareness and natural fourfold breathing cycle, full awareness of aches and pains (parasites/hooks), RR full relaxation, HF removal of hooks/parasites/extending subtle bodies with light.

And speaking of Subtle Bodies... lets see if I can provide info here on it. Portal material, but can't hurt at this stage.

 

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Practicus Lecture, On the General Guidance and Purification of the Soul
"Learn first, 0 Practicus of our Ancient Order, that true Equilibrium is the basis of the Soul . If thou thyself hast not a sure foundation, whereon wilt thou stand to direct the forces of Nature?
Know then that as Man is born into this world amidst the darkness of Nature and the strife of contending forces, so must his first endeavour be to seek the Li ht through their reconciliation. Thus, thou who hast trial and trouble of tfis life, rejoice because of them, for in them is strength, and by their means is a athwa opened unto that light Divine.
How should it be otherwise, 0 man, whose life is but a day in Eternity, a drop in the Ocean of Time? How, if thy trials were not many, couldst thou purge thy soul from the dross of Earth?
Is it but now that the higher life is beset with dangers and difficulties; hath it not been ever thus with the Sagesand Hierophantsof the Past? They have been persecuted and reviled, the have been tormented of men, yet through this has their glory increased. Rejoice, therefore, 0 Initiate, for the greater thy trial, the brighter thy triumph. When men shall revile thee and speak against thee falsely, hath not the Master said "Blessedart thou." Yet, 0 Practicus, let thy victories brin thee not vanity, for with increase of knowl- edge should come increase oBwisdom. He who knows little, thinketh he knows much; but he who knoweth much hath learned his own ignorance. SeestthouaManwiseinhisownconceit?Thereismorehopeofafoolthanof him.
Benothastytocondemnother's sin.Howknowestthouthatin <147> their place.thou couldst have resisted the tem ation? And even were it so, why shouldst thou despise one w!?o is weaker than thyself? Be thou well sure of this, that in slander and self-righteousnessis sin. Pardon therefore the sinner, but encourage not the sin. The Master con- demned not the adulterous woman, but neither did he encourage her to commit the sin.
Thou therefore who desires magical gifts, be sure that thy soul is firm and steadfast, for it is by flattering thy weakness that the Evil One will gain power over thee. Humble thyself before thy God, yet fear neither man nor spirit. Fear is failure and the forerunner of failure; and courage is the beginning of virtue. Therefore fear not the Szirits, but be firm and courteous with
espise or to revile them, and this too may lead thee into sin. Command and banish the Evil ones. Curse them by
the Great Names of God, if need be; but neither mock nor revile them, for so assuredly thou wilt be led into error.
A man is what he maketh himself within the limits fixed by his inherited destiny; he is a part of mankind. His actions affect not himself only, but also those with whom he is brought into contact, either for good or for evil.
Neither worship nor neglect the physical body, which is thy temporary connection with the outer and material world. Therefore let thy mental equilibrium be above disturbances by material events. Restrain the animal passions and nourish the higher aspirations; the emotions are purified by suffering.
Do good unto others for God's sake, not for reward, not for gratitude from them, not for sympathy. If thou art generous, thou wilt not long<148> for thine ears to be tickled by expressions of gratitude. Remember that unbalanced force is evil, that unbalanced severity is but cruelty and oppression, but that also unbalanced Mercy is but weakness which would allow and abet evil. True prayer is as much action as Word; it is Will. The Gods will not do for man what his Higher Powers can do for himself, if he cultivate Will and Wisdom. Remember that this Earth is but an atom in the Universe, and thou thyself but an atom thereon. And that even couldst thou become the God of this Earth whereon thou crawlest and grovellest,thou wouldst even then be but an atom and one among many. Nevertheless, have the greatest self- respect, and to that end sin not against thyself. The sin which is unpardonable is knowingly and wilfully to reject spiritual truth, but every sin and act leaveth its effect.
To obtain magical Power, learn to contro lthought. Admit only true ideas which are in harmony with the end desired, and not every stray and contradictory idea that presents itself. Fixed thought is a means to an end; therefore pay attention to the power of silent thought and meditation. The material act is but the outward expression of the thought, and therefore it hath been said that "the thought of foolishnessis sin." Thought therefore is the commencement of action, and if a chance thought can produce much effect, what cannot fixed thought do? Therefore, as has been already said, establish thyself firmly in the Equilibrium of Forces, in the centre of the cross of the elements, that Cross from whose centre the creative word issued in the birth of the dawning universe.
As it was said unto thee in the Grade of Theoricus: "Be thou <149> therefore prompt and active as the Sylphs, but avoid frivolity and caprice. Be energetic and strong like the Salamanders, but avoid irritability and ferocity. Be flexible and attentive to images like the Undines, but avoid idleness and changeability. Be laborious and patient like the Gnomes, but avoid grossness and avarice." So shalt thou gradually develop the powers of thy Soul and fit thyself to command the spirits of the
elements.
For wert thou to summon the Gnomes to pander to thy avarice, thou wouldst no longer command them, but they would command thee. Wouldst thou abuse the pure creatures of God's creation to fill thy coffers and to satisfy thy lust for Gold? Wouldst thou defile the Spirits of driving Fire to serve thy wrath and hatred? Wouldst thou violate the purity of the Souls of the Water to pander to thy lust and debauchery? Wouldst thou force the Spirits of the evening breeze to minister to thy folly and caprice? Know that with such desires thou canst but attract the evil and not the good, and in that can the evil will have power over thee. In true religion there is no sect. Therefore take heed that thou blaspheme not the name by which another knoweth his God for if thou doest this thing in Jupiter, thou wilt blaspheme YHVH; and in Osiris YEHESHUAH.
''Ask of God and ye shall have, Seek and ye shall find. Knock, and it shall be opened unto you."

 

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ON THE WORK TO BE UNDERTAKEN BETWEEN PORTAL AND @-a
The work comes under six headings as follows:

1. A Thesis on the Rituals.
2. A meditation on the crosses which have been used as admission
   badgesintheGrades.Thisisapreparationforthemeditationwhich precedes the @-aGrade and should be applied for when you have been a Portal Member for seven months.
3. A complete diagram of The Tree of Life.
4. The practice of control of the Aura.
5. The placing of The Tree of Life in the Aura.
6. Tattwas-Astrology-Divination.

Control of the Aura. If you are not already familiar with the parts of your own body such as nervous system, respiratory system, digestive system, get some simple text-book such as is used in ambulance work, or attend a course of first-aid lectures so that, before starting to work on your subtle body, you may know something about your physical body.
Your physical body is interpenetrated by a subtle body or aura which also surrounds the physical body like an egg of light. You should now begin to practise controlling this aura or Sphere of Sensation. This means that you must first try to get l'our emotional reactions under conscious control.
Instead of automatical the mechanism which underlies these feelings. To assist you in this, thestudy of psychology is recommended. There are many books on the subject, of which the following are easy to understand and clearly stated.
Psychology by Wm. McDougall (Home University Library). <178>
Psychoanalysis for Normal People by Geraldine Coster.
Psycho-Synthesis by the Dean of Chester Cathedral.
Machinery of the Mind by Violet Firth.
Having built up some idea of the mechanism of your mental processes, you should now try to make yourself negative or positive at will towards people or ideas. If you are likely to meet someone who always makes you argumentativeand irritable, decide that your aura is closed to their power of irritatingyou and that your mind will not be disturbed by what the say. It is good sometimesto listen to views with which you disagree to teach you not only to make no verbal response, but to keep your feelings in a beyance also. In this way you come to learn how much of your disagreement is due to preju- dice or personal factors, and how much to your regard for abstract truth.
Again, sometimes practise opening your aura to people or ideas in an endeavour to see things from another's point of view.
The practice of deep breathing is also of help in establishingpoise and in controlling nervousness. It is good to expand the chest to its fullest extent and then to expand the diaphragm below the ribs as well and then to let the breath out slowly and steadily on a vowel sound such as ah or '0'.
If you are nervy, you will find that your breathing is shallow and that your muscles are tense. You tend to clench your hands and tighten <179> up the abdominal muscles. To cure this, take a deep breath to full capacity, hold it while tensing and relaxing alternately the ab- dominal muscles. Do this (i.e. the tensing and relaxing of the muscles) three times and then relax completely into a chair. Allow all your muscles to go limp and let your breath out to the last gasp. Do the whole process three times, if necessary. It is designed to stimulate the solar plexus which is the heart of the nervous system which governs emotion.
Another good exercise is to say the Deity Names aloud. Take a deep breath and say them softly, smoothly and slowly, imagining the while that your voice travels out to the confines of the Universe. This can be done in conjunction with the Pentagram Ritual.
5. The Tree of Life in the Aura. In the aura which interpenetrates and surrounds our physical bodies, we are to build up a replica of the Tree of Life. The Pillar of Severity is on our right side, the Pillar of Mercy on our left, and the Pillar of Benificence in our midst.

 

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Okay .. back to the subject at hand, subtle bodies (of light), and development of them.
This may go into the Z-2 rituals of GD fame. I am not aware of OTO equivalents.

 

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There is another document, in the Z-2 Formulae, perhaps Spiritual Development (Shin) is the answer there. Needless to say, the above is more than enough food for thought for me for the day.

 

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Jotting down subscales to Enlightenment, in offline notebook. Will try to think of every circumstance within any scale and resolve it this month.

Tarot Contemplation Ritual: XII The Hanged Man. Elemental Water. Illumination, self-sacrifice, martyrdom, reversal of circumstances or thinking.

Laundry is somewhat organized, though still need to go through it all and make sure all towels and washcloths are in with bedding, as well as pillowcase. Shirts and summer wear are next load.

Still jotting down courses for the Certificates with Online option and the Early Childhood Education Bachelors requirements. Past that will take courses with cross functional or lateral skills across several industries as well as education. Past that next focus is on Masters in Anthropology of Religion. May also take a Social Work certificate program or basic Psychology and social work courses as well. Croiss functional clergy/spiritual and mundane counselor. EMT and Cooking courses. Good to know basic CPR and first aid regardless of industry. Perhaps some Fire Science courses with Culinary courses, to better avoid kitchen fires. Etc.

Need a shelving using for cross-functional bookcase and display shelves, and possibly two more to server as quarter tables where Ancestos and God are venerated. So two of those white plastic shelving units with poles for additional shelves, perhaps three total. Can use one for shoes in the closet.

Need a plastic three drawer filing cabinet - taxes in large drawer, other two bills and disability/health info.

Need to get full physical/chiropractic/podiatry, neurological and psychiatric testing. Need proof of any and all disabilities.

Need to get PO Box and amazon shipment of herbs and bottles for making oils and get that underway. Would be nice to sell 100 units this summer.

Need rent and bills under control. Between working extra hours and side hustles, will have to come up with back rent this yer (2k/month). Need a professional job with good salary.

Need to get taxes filed, whether IBM wants to play ball or not, they can play with the IRS instead of me. Get taxes filed, 500-1500 stored away and go into Chapter 13.

Need serotonin and Keppra refills. Just a few material needs

 

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IChing for the day:
Dimes
B
B
U
Pennies
B
U
U

Trigram 1: N.E. Mars. Tejas. Fire/Shin. BBU. Kan. Feet. 27&31
Trigram2: S.E. Venus. Apas. Water/Mem. BUU. Tui. Mouth. 14&23							#

Hexagram: #54. Fire of Water (King of Cups). Kwei Mei.
Meaning: Unfortunate marriage (of a younger sister before the elder)

 

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What's funny is Trigram 2 and my Tarot Contemplation Ritual card. The Hanged Man. Mem. 40. (Elemental) Water.
Mars and Venus ... feet and mouth ... sexual foot worship kink/taboo?

 

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Have rocks laying in sunlight at the moment and coming up with questions for them. I want to have a solid Mineral Kingdom knowledge in order to arrive at better questions.

Some questions:
What space body are you connected to?
Which chakra do you feel perfect health/want to reside in/feel at home with?
Which Deva are you connected to?
Were you formed by fire, or by water?