Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

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My journal is a segment of my mind, and is scattered or ADHD af.
Need to review my 50 page journal and get er done.

 

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Wednesday, Jun 1, 2022 (6+1+6=13=4, Order/sight/management). Ruling Planet: Mercury. Ruling Archangel: Raphael. Color: Orange/Violet
Sleep: Virtuall none right now, however missed all medication on third day of fighting cover due to sleeping practically all day.
Dreams: Slept with Tarot Deck under pillow and had a dream, cannot recall any detail however other than I had a dream. I always choose to remember my dreams.

Moon phase: 3.1% Waxing Crescent in Cancer

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Transits:
Sol. Gemini. 10o48' (10 Swords)
Luna Cancer 0o42' (4 of Cups)
Mercury Taurus R 26o14' (6 Pentacles)
Venus Taurus 4o19' (7 Pentacles)
Mars Aries 5o26'
Jupiter Aries 3o47' (4 Wands)
Saturn Aquarius 25o14'
Uranus Taurus 16o19'
Neptune Pisces 25o14'
Pluto Capricorn R 28o21'
Weather: 68 Deg Currently
Clear. 80 Hi 53 Lo

Diet: Ate pasta and drank water. Had ice cream.
Exercise: None currently
Mood: Low

Mental Notes: Im about to throw my computer out of the fucking window on the third floor since its pissing me off on the reg.
Physical Notes:

Meditations:
Need to do HF hourly since people are beginning to piss me the fuck off by their very earthly nature.

Work: Malkuth begins today.

Rituals:
HF Meditation
Adorations
Qabalistic Cross
Neophyte Formula
Zelator Formula
Qabalistic Cross
HF Meditation

 

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Tarot Contemplation Ritual: XVII The Star. Aquarius (current station of Saturn, so Saturn is exalted). Meditation, hope, nature unveiling itself.

Keyword for me - MEDITATE, MEDITATION, MEDITATING. All day. Every day. At least 10 minutes per day.

 

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Reviewing Tarot Fundamentals by Case, and came to an intersection to understanding where I am at now, esoterically, and why.
Going back to the idea on vices to virtues using past tense stements, based arch month on one sphere o the ToL. Malkuth is Tomorrow, Jun 1.
All things Malkuth must be brought together in thirty days time. One week per element.
Vice and Virtue: Avarice, Inertia and Discrimination.

How did I come to be so discriminating for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to be so active for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to be so peaceful for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to know my place in Malkuth in all areas of my life?
How did I come to bring my physical body under self-control in all areas of my life?

Etc - daily repetition followed by corresponding physical acts.

But not sure how this magic formula works ... except through repetition fo a mantra or affirmation until embedded in the SubConscious.

Keys to study for the Weeks exercise from Tarot Fundamentals, would be XVIII, XX and XXI. Each of these every week through June.
XVIII: Organization - Law of Suggestion (VIII) through direct activity of attention (I).
"This week begin the practice of reviewing your day's activities just before going to sleep. Record your gains and failures in your diary. Your attainments are steps in your progress toward Self-realization. Your failures warn you what to avoid in the future.
Never muse long on your failures. Remember that what we call 'sin' is nothing but 'missing the mark'. Do not worry. Worry is concentratedion on the negative appearances of life. If you are given to worry, then you possess the ability to concentrate. Change the polarity of you thoughts and emotions.. Before you fall asleep, impress subconsciousness with the most positive images of good you can fashion. Persist in this practice. You will sow seeds which subconsciousness will build into a new and better bodily structures."

XX. Revelation.
"This week try to practice SILENCE. Speak as little as you can, keep your emotions under control, and above all, try to make your thoughts quiet. Notice that this conserves energy for useful endeavors. Continue this practice, the rest of your life.

XXI. The World. World/Cos,ic Consciousness
Live life well-lived, realizing and attaining heaven on earth here and now. Make this your goal, to enter into it. Devote yourself;lf with all your heart to it, and, like thousands who have gone this way before you, you shall be among those who tread the joyous measures of the Dance of Life."

How did I come to Meditate every day?

Affirmations said. Now to follow with acts with love behind it all in all ways.

 

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Contacted lab doing COVID diagnostics for an updated result.
Contacted IBM by phone, web form and email.
Reached out to google recruiter and left my contact info.
Reaching out to County for prescriptions.
Will organize all paper today, by categories and store in large box.
Going back to work tomorrow regardless, I need income coming in for the next three weeks to satisfy June, and then the next two weeks to be current with July. Still have outstanding bank balance otherwise would be two weeks catchup for June.
So, handling mundane matters and working toward being clean and organized.

Will be doing HF meditation shortly, and doing my reading.
Need to take notes with Hodson, and read through areas I skipped.
Have to catch up on other reading as well.

Past that, most likely eating Mac N Cheese and taking a rest.
Have already taken all medicines and vitamins and supplements to fight what I have, which is a nasty nondrying cough.

 

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Physical activity - walked two large city blocks and back by going to the store and coming back home. Enough to burn a few calories as I walk quickly with short legs.
Need to use my Minor arcana to help me with exercise - that or stick to a daily exercise routine - pushups, setups, burpees, walking. Minimum ten each per day.

 

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Stones have been sitting in a circle for 2-3 days now, in the sunlight, touching each other; the others in a quarter moon pattern around a trio of statues (Magi, Mary+Jesus, Joseph). Will quiz each with the basic questions, try to do a geology analysis of each, and quiz each with advanced quseions. Will update journal with results, may have to take offline notes.

Will have to go out for kitty food and kitty litter. If I have enough, Id like to get the herb growing kit. Dubois' Plant Spagyrics is on my to read list.

Perused Barrett and Agrippa on Mineral and Plant Kingdoms, and interesting info.

Now trying to figure out what the sub-elements of Malkuth are, in order to bring them under personal control.

 

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Update on results, not plans, yes, this would be a great idea, goes with the law of SILENCE. Which Im supposed to be practicing this month for one of the three paths out of Malkuth, from Tarot Fundamentals by Case.

 

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Figure I need 38 hours to work this week to take care of my bank, then 35 hours per week for two weeks to take care of Jun Rent/Utilities, then the next two weeks going into July takes care of July rent. Then comes the decision, put the rest in Jul into Aug, or back rent, or a breather (savings)? So by Fall have been current for a couple of months, and will be looking into office work for the next year. Then, hopefully within a year all of my debts have been settled. Now, to act on this. It would be nice not to stress over finances ever again.
Then housing is on the horizon. Hopefully disability as well. It would be nice not to have to work in my 60s with a variety of disorders. Then all of my time could be devoted to study. And I could grow some tasty herbs and fruits and veggies in my own place/land.

 

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Shopping got done, at least for the kitty -- food, treats, litter. Some ice cream and a few sandwich fixings (goober, turkey, bbq sauce), club crackers, buttercream frosting). Already have coffee. Have easy-Mac M&C packets, M&C packs, Natura, yams, some other canned veggies, and spaghetti sauce. Im sure I can make do for a bit. Back on medication today, fourth day fighting it. Feeling much better, coughed out a lot of congestion. Not wheezing as much, not out of breath as often. Have used AC a couple of times until the storm broke the heat, as it got hard to breathe at times. No fan of winter here, but theres a nice comfy medium in most cases.
Anyway, set for at least a week, now to get back to work and get finances under control again. Eventually before bankruptcy, would like to get a PO Box, and supplies off amazon for business venture/side hustle/selling by word of mouth. Same with herbs I grow. Fruits and veggies mainly for me. Had a urge to get seeds at Kroger, this is the second time now, maybe this week I break down and buy $20 worth of seeds and scatter them everywhere. Make people wonder what the hell is going on. Feed the rabbits and birds
Back to meditation, reading and rock quizzing.

 

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Reviewing the 10's of the Tarot deck, and noticed a couple things - the 10's and 9's, possibly 8's use Mutable signs on the card star positioning. Second, need to not overthink - what kills in the air if earth is overthinking. Air of Earth and Fire of Earth, Swords and Wands, are not as pretty or comforting as the other two.

 

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Why is mutable signs such a thing on the lowest three sephira?
Path-wise this does not make sense, Only Tav is open to Malkuth and Yesod, and Qoph open only to Malkuth and Netzach. The other two mutable signs can only be accessed first after reaching Tiphareth, and working to either Binah or Chesed in terms of the chosen path/sign.
Unless the Kircher model is incorrect.

 

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Back to Hodson, Agrippa, and other reading.
HF Meditation practiced a few times during the day, even sending to two others on the bus.
Will do extensive HF meditation tonight.
Emotions under control today, no excessive rattling of me/triggering me.
Active today. Perhaps back to work tomorrow, no perhaps about it. Need income stream coming to me on the reg.

 

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Thursday, Jun 2, 2022 (6+2+6=14=5, Mediation, consider V. The Hierophant).
Ruling Planet: Jupiter. Ruling Archangel: Tzadkiel. Color: Royal Blue/Purple.
Sleep: Fair to low.
Dreams: None recalled.

Moon phase: 8.4% Waxing Crescent in Cancer

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Transits:
Sol. Gemini. 11o59' (10 Swords)
Luna Cancer 15o19' (4 of Cups)
Mercury Taurus R 26o06' (6 Pentacles)
Venus Taurus 5o46' (7 Pentacles)
Mars Aries 6o21'
Jupiter Aries 3o58' (4 Wands)
Saturn Aquarius 25o14'
Uranus Taurus 16o23'
Neptune Pisces 25o15'
Pluto Capricorn R 28o20'

Weather: 56 Deg Currently
Clear. 74 Hi 52 Lo
Chance of rain around 9:15

Diet: Ate pasta and drank water. Had ice cream.
Exercise: None currently
Mood: Low

Mental Notes:

Physical Notes:

Meditations:
Need to do HF hourly since people are beginning to piss me the fuck off by their very earthly nature.

Work: Malkuth begins today.

Rituals:
HF Meditation
Adorations
Qabalistic Cross
Neophyte Formula
Zelator Formula
Qabalistic Cross
HF Meditation

Readings:
Stones/Geomancy (did not know sale of stone spirits was an actual thing), Herbs/Plant Spagyrics,
Treatise on White Magic, Teachings of an Initaiate, Occult Principles of Health and Healing,
Seven Steps in Occultism,
The Power of Concentration, Taming the Mind,
Alchemy,
Qabalah,
Three Books of Occult Philosophy,
The Kingdom of the Gods; more in queue.
Basically trying to tackle second day of Malkuth/Earth for month of June. July is Yesod, therefore control of the mind is critically necessary, as well as a zeal for learning. Geomancy will take precedence this week, which includes everything in the Mineral Kingdom, as well as corresponding Plant Kingdom knowledge.
Geomancy - week one
Qabalah - week two
Alchemy - week three
Concentration - week four
Also the articles on Romas site for reading today, particularly Flame in the Heart and Hooks/Oppression System.
Considering if meditation on violet, orange, and green candles to reach the vertex of the three sephirs in that right triangle, was enough to initiate or raise the planes scales on the 7's and some of the 6's. Work on 6's and 5's (this gets into third-fourth subtle body).

 

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Reading John Michael Greer's "The Art and Practice of Geomancy" (Thank you WizardForums for the book share!)
Also have "The Alchemy of Stones", "Gemstone Sorcery", Minerals texbook, Rock and Mineral ID textbook, Audobon Society Guide to Rocks and Minerals open. As well as Regards Geomantic Divination book open. I am determined to learn Geomancy through this fist week of July.
I am already a devotee of Geology, and like the Mineral Kingdom, and it appears they are okay with me as well. I have tried to unsuccessfully summon Ghob a couple of times in the past. Likely the warnings about the Elementals ring true in this case, a strong will must be readily available to work with the Earth elementals, and my will was not quite at that stage. It is getting stronger however.
Astrology will come next, and knowing now its not necessarily about playing with skipping stones, but using earths materials to arrive at an oracular or divinatory answer to the question sought. I will also do Geomantic readings through the other three weeks as time allows, at least one or two per day.

 

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As the first week covers Geomancy, it is an in-depth study of the Mineral and well as the Plant Kingdoms. I may in fact by week 2 buy at least $20.00 (ten packs) of assorted flower, herb and vegetable seeds, and sprinkle where I walk, particularly in wet areas, so seeds can germinate and plant themselves for root systems, and likely will have the best soil in the wild here. I will keep tabs on where they were sprinkled and record their growth over the month, then leave it all to Mother Nature to handle.

 

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Tarot Contemplation Ritual: XIX The Sun. Sol. Regeneration. The necessary source of all life on earth. Healing, new age.

 

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Working at the moment on a break from reading Mr Greer's book on Geomancy (very nice book!), to list out courses of study of interest available to me.

Currently two online certificate programs exist, Business Management and Medical Scribe; and the Bachelors in Childhood Education. Might find work in a doctors office with the two certificates. Will also take other courses, but the question is if they are not necessary to be onsite (OH and CA are impossibilities for me atm). Would like to take courses on basic sciences and some foreign languages as well, even non lab theoretical would be fine with me. Social studies and humanities - the closer I can get to Anthropology and occult related courses the better, the odd courses that could finagle me a job would be a good priority. However, Im focusing on long term solutions to my problems.

Will organize and clean my room today. Laundry will come in time with money. I have enough for a wash or dry, just need to get 2 bucks in quarters do I can do bedding at least, with one or two outfits thrown in for work/new shirts. Hopefully today to get this done, maybe more than one load to do, may need two for bedding and clothes. Conmforter alone is one load in these washers.

Medications have been handled on my side.
Requests for release of copies of tax info has been handled on my side.
My illness has been handled on my side.
My recovery has been handled on my side.
My lab report has been handled on my side.
My getting back to work and income is the question tomorrow.