Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I should also finish up my Tarot cards and make sure the labeling looks good, I will probably donate the deck to someone or pitch it and get a new deck when I have money, and start the labeling process over again ... unless I have a deck like the Ceremonial Magick Deck by DuQuette.

But most of my cards are labeled, should just finish the rest as they ve come up in readings but I forgot to mark/label them. I have the info for all except court cards in my offline tarot journal.

Speaking of which, my journals are snapshots of thought or a regular journal entry.
So if you're looking to learn from my journal, keep in mind Im Borderline/Schizo Affective, so what makes sense to me in my journal will most likely be a blind or wtf moment to you.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Sunday, Jun 5, 2022 (6+5+6=17=8, forget the associated concept with 8, Victory perhaps). Ruling Planet: Sol. Ruling Archangel: Michael. Color: Gold/Yellow.
Sleep: Little. Will catch up since I have today off and dont have anything planned today.
Dreams: None recalled.
Moon Phase: 29.3% Waxing Crescent in 20o08' Leo
Transits: Aries, Taurus and Gemini host most of the planets.
Weather: 57 dF Cloudy 79 dF Day 54 dF Night
Diet: None so far except coffee.
Exercise: None today, may do playing card routine using Minor Arcana for four exercises to flip through
Mood: Fair
Mental Notes: Need a new job that gives respect, dignity and standard of living to me.
Physical Notes: Worn out by age.

Adorations:
Liber Resh Vel Helios: Full cycle starting at Kepra, then full cycle plus Ra. Grade signs/Sign of silence. Wand in right, dagger in left.
Lord of the Universe: Whenever passing East or West. Sign of Armed Enterer and Sign of Silence.

Rituals:
Body Awareness Exercise
Flame in the Heart Meditation/Exercise
Relaxation Ritual
Neophyte Formula (using nonstandard names)
Qaballistic Cross (standard verbiage)
Flame in the Heart Meditation/Exercise
Card for the Day: X Wheel of Fortune. Jupiter. Cause and Effect. Good turn in life, blessings, bad turn in life, blessings still.
Tarot Contemplation Ritual:
I-Ching for the Day:
Trigram 1:
Trigram 2:
Hexagram:
Meaning:

Learn the forms of the LRH elemental directions and Solar LRH/GRH.
Study Tau and Samekh and Gimel, then their relation to Daleth and Teth (double cross, could add Peh but seems slightly dark as a resulting symbol of one vertical line and three crossbars.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Same trigrams and hexagram as yesterday.
TCR is Key XII The Hanged Man - Enlightenment, self-sacrifice, martyrdom, captivity.

X + XII = XXII, the number of the letters.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

It is a tough call, but I am going to give up marijuana use.
Factors:
1. Decreased high/time being high over time.
2. Costs too much money for me.
3. Want to quit contributing to getting others high.
4. Want to readjust my life priorities.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Only buy statues that actively look at you. The rest are lumps of plaster etc

Good to know. There is a flower shop on the corner that always attracts my eye.

I plan to, when I have money, to buy a hundred dollars worth of plant and flower and fruit seeds and sprinkle out of a salt shaker where I walk.
I also plan to get a couple boquets of roses, so that I can make homemade rose oil and rose water. Same with Lavendar and other flowers and herbs. I plane to make a crapload of different oils, many of which are based in religious scriptures and lore on the herbs or flowers.

I also plan to buy a statue of each of the four archangels, Im sure I will find them at the Florist or in the Catholic bookshop.

I do also want to get Holy Water (a gallon if possible), and Apostolic anointing oil (a 2-Liter) for personal use. May combine with rose water/rose oil or other oils. I have the Voodoo Hoodoo Spellbook and Anna Rivas Mystical Oils books available to me, so I can create basic oil and incense recipes. I also want to get bulk herbs to make incense and poppets with.

Knot magic, I really should get into crochet as a hobby, my life is this fracking boring.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Okay, back to readings and plans.
Plans for the day today:
Come up with action plan for financial triage again, consider a personal loan from the bank if possible.
Create an Enochian Air Watchtower tablet with pasteboard and colored sharopies.
Play with the clay bucket and see if we can create a pentacle.
Create a writeup on the Fire runes in the Celtic Runes thread. Draw runes and take photo of it, explain name, Teutonic associations and rune purpose.
Create notes on Hodson, Regardie and others.
Finish star map based off The Golden Dawn "Tree of Life As Projected in a Solid Sphere", "Book T", etc.
Create Geomancy kit, get basic casting knowledge and note figures down in notebook.

 

[Mider2009]

On a positive note...what have you achieved magic wise, meaning spells, or connecting to spirits?

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

What have I acheieved magic wise ....

20s
Well, in my 20s I summoned a dark presence into my bedroom when I was obcessed with LaVey and had tried Necronomicon work, inducing a storm on a clear day.
I used a spell to find a 100 dollar bill at a low moment in my 20s.

30s
No work done

40s
Was invited to Golden Dawn Temple in Toronto twice, even though the universe prevented it.
I screened new magicians for Hermetic Society of the Golden Dawn briefly.

50s
Ive ... speaking of weather ... rolled back clouds to bring the sun out by visualization and incantation I created.
I co-created a death curse.
I created a "get a new lover" spell using the Four Aces of the Tarot.
I summoned Bime.
I summoned Ipos.
I summoned Lilith.
I summoned Lucifer.
I used to work with Belial.
I used a candle novena to guarantee a job.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Im currently on a new track of Mysticism and Magick. I am still planning to go the Hermetic route, if current plans do not work out.
I am going to go to a bookstore I know and inquire there about a job, as well as one at a florist. I am going to go the Catholic route religion wise.

Cant hurt to get Holy Water, Apostolic anointing oil, and 2 bouquet of roses and lavender. I will make rose and lavender water with the Holy Water, and oils with the Anointing oil.

Then anoint myself very day and chug a mouthful of Holy Water daily.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Im also reviving the CKeltic ancestry in me, will go to fairs this year for UK ancestry, Highlander games, Renaissance Festival, etc.
Will revive My Celitc Adventure and Celtic/Teutonic Runes. Geomancy kit, Enocihian Air Watchtower tablet, and Earth pentacle this week get constructed. Within next two weeks after those are done, Water Watchtower Tablet, and Air Dagger get constructed.

Could stand to look into basic science kits and supplies for alchemy, botany, crystal growing, etc.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I dont know, honestly, this week Ive had more success handling mundane things mundanely, that magic wouldn't have helped anyway.
So a Catholic mystic, thats my path now I guess.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Cigarette time.

 

[Roma]

Cigarette time.

Can you see an entity just behind your head that likes you to smoke?

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Not really, but doesn't surprise me.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

No, cannot see, but felt that when I applied HF to one area, the being moved away, and finally felt touching. These have got to be the parasites from that one night at a friends place. Same sensations.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

From the content of my posts, I sound like a real whiner.
Oh well, now I know and can adjust the tone.

 

[Roma]

So now you know that the urge for nicotine is from outside you. What will you do about it?

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Saw an elderly lady who walked slow and seemed to be in a moment of confusion, she had earmuffs or headphones on, but it seemed like something else.
I extended HF light to her, and she would walk back, as confused. Perhaps Im not at a level to be able to extend it to others at will, let alone if their will or another blocks it.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

So now you know that the urge for nicotine is from outside you. What will you do about it?

Ive quit smoking cigarettes. I guess find a more suitable outlet for stress management.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

May be getting a job as a receptionist at a dispensary.