Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

[DiLoco_DelEted]

So a bit of work cut out for me ....
Day 7 of Malkuth awareness.

How did I come to be so discriminating for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to be so active for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to be so peaceful for the better in all areas of my life?
How did I come to know my place in Malkuth in all areas of my life?
How did I come to bring my physical body under self-control in all areas of my life?
How did I come to Meditate every day?

Affirmations said, now to carry through with acts where letting every act be an act of love, whether thought, word or deed.

Discrimination, or rather, discernment is the Virtue of Malkuth, while Avarice and Inertia are the vices of Malkuth.

In order to combat avarice, we must be peaceful. The physical body must be brought under control , since obesity, cavities and other biochemical processes can lend itself to anger and ararice/mood disturbances.

In order to be discriminating or discerning, we must have a standard to compare a feeling person or event with, an experience with, and then use discernment or discrimination to make right choices in life.

In order to combat inertia, we must be active. Bring your physical body under control once again for this purpose.

Know my place in Malkuth and meditate. So, day seven of Malkuth awareness begins. I may do Alchemy (6-8 to 6-14) before Qabalah.
To this end, I have found The Alchemist Handbook by Frater Albertus, as well as A Dicrtionary of Alchemy and a few other books or papers on Alchemy.

This does not mean my experience with Geomancy has ended, instead it will have to have a time period entered in my person time management, so it can continue to be studied and practiced. Same with Alchemy, I plan on getting basic science kits that are affordable to practice with. Geology, Biology, Botany and Chemistry enter the modern picture ...to this end, it might behoove me to pick up study guides on the subjects. Astronomy as well, as Qabalah maps to star systems and planets and elements anyway.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Have tried not only the HF but the AO-box. It seems to help, yet I am still battling these parasites on an hourly basis. The AOBox seemed to help greatly for a short time.
Ive been becoming aware of others emotions and emotional states recently which is a good sign, a sign compassion is coming back into my soul and spirit.
Replied on a few pro boards posts.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

It just dawned on me that it might be possible to carry over the star mappings from ToL As Projected Into A Solid Sphere to the Geomantic figures. If the Geomantic figures are akin to the zodiac, then this might make perfect sense, and open up new understanding to me.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

May have to do a short tutorial on Star Maps/TOLAPIASS/Tarot asscoiations/(Geomantic associations?)

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Learn about leylines, Hartmann grid, Curry walls, meridians, wave guides, volcanic plugs etc

As I recall, Close Encounters of the Third Kind featured a volcanic plug. What was the soft disclosure?

Will keep looking into these.
I would say the soft disclosure was one of two theories:
1. Out of frustration, he was making an example of himself like a volcano about to blow.
2. Perhaps certain entities or machinery are residing in vacant volcanoes?

As for a 3-D Geomancy view, could it possibly come close to The Tree of Life As Projected Into a Solid Sphere, due to the tarot star mappings, and geomancy contains the figures of the zodiac, that naturally it may extend to the same star mappings, and see the solid sphere ToL in 3D form?
Ive had virtually no sleep this past night btw, if I seem more out there than usual.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Learn about leylines, Hartmann grid, Curry walls, meridians, wave guides, volcanic plugs etc

As I recall, Close Encounters of the Third Kind featured a volcanic plug. What was the soft disclosure?

BTW, a moment to show my ignorance in all its glory, are these in any way related to the new 5G towers (I have one in my backyard)?

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Okay, it seems it is all related to Global Warming

 

[Roma]

related to the new 5G towers (I have one in my backyard)?

Time to find new accomodation.

5G is quite dangerous, partly because it does beam-forming to the IoT. If you are in a beam that will directly damage health

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Yikes.
Well, I need to come up with 15k quick then, because of a not working during C19 year. So, Im hurting financially. I was tantalized with a possible job opportunity by one of the hotel guests, he does HVAC type stuff, and said his crew makes 100k a year. And I dont need HVAC certification.
On the bright side, my "new assistant" got let go. So one of my jobs is still mine for the working. I figure by the end of the month I will have paid off my negative bank balance and June rent. I can't really pay rent until I handle the negative bank balance, so then Mid Jul July rent gets paid, and then the latter two weeks of July get Aug rent. Technically I could leave by then, except for back rent that I need to pay. Another alternative that will probably occur is a Chapter 13, and hope the IRS doesn't pound me with major penalties. They're the ones holding my lost W2s hostage, so they need to cooperate with me. And, until then, I couldn't take the HVAC job if I wanted it, because Id have to travel, and if you have unfixed or taxes in arrears, the gov holds your passport hostage, to avoid another Jim Jones vacation option.
So, a few issues that prevent an easy move. Id also need three months rent to move in to most places. However, near Denver is a tasty option.

 

[Roma]

Use aluminum foil on all the windows facing the 5G transmitter. And the walls as well - but may need to earth foil that is close to power circuits in the wall - to avoid volts/meter

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I guess that means my western wall. I knew there was a reason why I moved my bed. Not sure if the grid you mentioned is worse than the 5G wall, in other case, maybe new accomofdations are a fundamental priority, which means I need a full time professional job that makes decent money and allows me to sit, such as a desk job.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I guess I start hydrating since I quit smoking, though I still use my Juul. That way should I be graced with such a position, hopefully the drug screen will not be an issue.
Now .. what are transferable skills for teachers of PreK/K-5. Those will come in handy when I get my Bachelors and seeking a job teaching.

 

[Roma]

Be careful about the water you drink. Urban water is generally fairly toxic by design - to kill any bugs that may be in it, and then the microbiome of your digestive system.

Also urban water usually has agricultural and industrial chemicals as well as artificial hormones from animals and humans.

My RO system reduces dissolved solids from 140 ppm to 4 ppm - then I do Steiner stirring, make the water alkaline with bicarb, add magnesium and store the water in steel with various positive stones. The water tastes sweet. Visitors easily feel the difference without even drinking it.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Yeah, my cat and I should not be drinking from our bathroom sink. Convenience might not be the best method. At least spring water or distilled water should be what were drinking from. Especially necessary since I easily get dehydrated, and she is overweight with a danger of diabetes or other issues, so I need to get my girl on a diet. And give her better water. It might have screwed with her digestive system. She rarely gets sick when drinking spring or distilled water, so I guess this is a hint and a half for me. And her.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

This tired camper is hitting the sack. Hope everyone has a good night/morning.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Perhaps Mysticism is the only way for me. Doesn't seem drastically different then going to church every day. Perhaps both.
Magic does not seem to be a thing for me in any way. Others are right, Ive hacked at Magic for over ten years and have had no discernible difference in my life. If anything its blown up my life several times. So, maybe magic is just a LOTR interest for me going forward.
There is also witchcraft.
Still, Im too stubborn to give up, especially when someone tells me to do so.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I would love to go to a temple on Saturday, but have to work open to close Thurs-Fri-Sat.
I guess since I will have Sundays off, then I can at least go to the adjoining church next to the temple.
Or, visit the Catholic Church or several other churches nearby.

 

[Roma]

Never mind the mysticism. It is at best an intermediate step in the process of taking up the cosmic functions allocated to Earth humanity.

Better to:

• connect to the vertical stream of Light from On High
• establish right relationships with the myriad intelligences that make up your human incarnational system and learn to manage those intelligences
• establish right relationships with surrounding intelligences, including human
• learn how to control your consciousness sufficiently to perform inner plane tasks
• become sensitive to the Intent implicit in the Light from On High

Sometimes Catholic services are a good place to practice the above

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Establish right relationship with people in what sense? I am no longer interested in sex or dating and Im 53, so unlikely I will want to have a child. Not to mention that would depend on the opposite sex anyway.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Books going to my job with me:
Three notebooks (One angelic workings, one the start of an attempt of a formulaic magic pattern involving Celestial Hierarchies/Choirs), Audobon Field Guide to Rocks and Minerals, Little Herb Encyclopedia, Dynamics of Faith (An old Bishop I know wrote the book), Druid Magic and Wild Magic (Celtic Magick). Tarot deck and the four primary stones I bought go with in their bag.

I could alter my view and say well, its not like I dont waste time when left to my own idle time (and usually descends into drugs, porn, etc), so might as well give each magic book a good ol college try, even bordering on Chaos Magic since the expectation any of them will emphatically work may be low. Not to doubt, just not to have expectations shatter again as it did with my trials with trying to be allowed to practice magick.

Then there is Mysticism, and true, some of the stuff is theatre drama same as ceremonial magic, to get you in the mood so to speak.

Meditation and Yoga are not bad hobbies.
Church/Temple can be very beneficial to me.
Past that, play with rocks and plants and animals.
Try to find people to have meaningful positive give and take relationships with, and try to enter into right relationships.

THIS IS NOT TO INFER THAT I HAVE A DESIRE TO DATE OR HAVE SEX WITH ANYONE, NOR TO H?AVE CHILDREN (Im 53).

I really am not interested after being dogged by virtually every woman out there, as if they are a rose garden themselves.
So, I dont need crap on top of preexisting trauma I am working out on my own (because therapy and the County dont help at all, they are even holding my prescription refills hostage.

Then there is my financial house, an utter catastrophe (with death squads waiting for me to try to repair it) (seemingly).
Then there is the combo I was made aware of about grids my bed lays on, not to mention the 5G tower a 1/4 away from my backyard. So moving may have to be an option, since I owe over 10k in back rent to my roommate/landlord. I dont want to dick him over as he has been superhumanly patient with me. And even whatever arguments or fights we have had were not enough to break our relationship, partially out of self-survival mechanisms, but also because I hate my habit of burning bridges.

Maybe I should go retro past lives and join a monastery.