Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

[Mider2009]

Where it comes to my existential crisis - is obviously not wanting to suffer ever again, not to go to the Lake of Fire, Hell, Qlippoth etc. I want the Christian and Judaic dream of the afterlife.

But....

If I had fucked up so badly that my fate is to be dropped into the eternal deep fryer lake, then walk boldly into it I guess. Maybe realize that its eternal, so there is no reason for fear of suffering. Perhaps Id swim down to the bottom of the Lake of Fire and catch an eternal nap. I mean, realize its eternal, realize it will cause agonizing pain, as if you dove into the magma of the earth. But, since those two conditions may exist, then you might as well accept it and just go to sleep for eternity.

Or ... walk the hell into that light.

Again...there’s no eternal hell, but if you believe in lakes 9f fire n other such nonsense that’s what you’ll experience

 

[Roma]

If humans consider that recycling is an ethical requirement, it may be that The Source of All has been practising recycling/refining human souls from the beginning

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Well thank you all

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

If humans consider that recycling is an ethical requirement, it may be that The Source of All has been practising recycling/refining human souls from the beginning

That is an interesting point.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Again...there’s no eternal hell, but if you believe in lakes 9f fire n other such nonsense that’s what you’ll experience

Yeah, I know I need to do something like Hypnosis to disbelieve specific things. I dont want to toss the whole thing out, just focusing on a God of love, and Paradise.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Reading The Secret Wisdom Of All Ages, by Hall - on Qabalah.
It does seem most of the Bible is symbolic, only in terms of the prophetic books, or any book lending itself to symbolism. At least, this kind of seems to be where he leads in some of his chapters. It also has a chapter on Alchemy.
Knowing Steiner and Heindel, I have no doubt Hall knows his stuff.

 

[Jk666]

Sources? Qabalah states otherwise.

just ask your subconscious u have everything organized but as other posters previously said u have parasites around u. Especially targeting your head. You’re very stubborn.

if I had ways in magic or the mundane that didn’t work for decades I would just at lEast try to change them. you just do the same things you’ve always done.

afterward u ask why do u fail?

it’s up to u not to listen. good Luck

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Reding the Book of Formation (Sepher Yetzirah) out of TSWOAA by Hall.

Okay, well if Im in the middle of a tug of war on using particular systems, its not an easy call. Any real practice takes time.

Look at E Koetting or Conner Kendall for example, or Nate Bales, these guys did not easy lives, very harsh ones iirc, and they put blood sweat and tears into their work. They busted their butts to make it happen. One word: Persistence. Regardie and Crowley were the same on this, Persistence and education were key. So was submission to the Most High, but submission simply meaning working within the will set I Isaiah 66/what Christ reiterated.

Think of all the Mages throughout time, much like a message from the archdemon adored on there, "you want to produce planets, but think of all those who before you wanted the same but failed." They all put their time inland nothing was guaranteed that they would be successful in all they did. Much was trial and error within logic.

So, it takes time, and it takes room to grow. Im not working within that system anymore, even though I frequently mention the order.

I dont know the perfect system for me, otherwise I would have hijtailed it there earlier.
If its a question of taking the LHP, nope, been there, done that, no change.

Perhaps magic was never meant for me, that is also a possibility. I know each of us have inherent magic, thats a given. Whats not a given is that we will succeed in all we do. I could only wish therwise.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I will say though, perhaps I need to be silent about what Im doing or reading, Maybe that might produce change?

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

You see, one system cannot produce a change overnight, or it is a shortcut with a catch.
All systems require a fundamental level of standards as fas as Knowledge goes, thus producing the rule: To Know".
The time required, the pressures over that time, much like rock walls will fracture and carbon will produce a diamond. It builds grit. Thus "To Will".
Then. the third, dont be an armchair magus. You must do your will, and your will should be that of love, at least from the RHP. Thus, "To Do".
My bane, and the last rule of the Sphinx - "Be silent."

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Yes. Parasites are the bane of most magicians. Its a hive mind consciousness structure. The question - "what is the one and only source of the parasites?" Destroy that MFer and we should be good to go. Here is an interesting tidbit: The angels and demons dont care for parasites, in fact a few are largely used for taking out the parasites.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Finally, on picking a system and sticking with it, it takes time. How long have we known each other? Two years minimum?
It took Crowley two years to get in and out of the Outer and Inner Orders and start his own system.
Crowley was very determined, very logical, very impassioned with his art, he did not take shortcuts. None at all. Education was something that if for the diligent students to do their work, results were there for the taking. Regardie did not rush through. Nor Barrett. Nor Agrippa. Nor and grimoire writer.
They took their time to know. Perhaps not as long as me, but that is the point. My education and knowledge level I doubt is greater than a kid in the third grade.
Seriously, I sucked in school.
So you see, we think were meant for something, and sometimes we cannot qualify for that level.
But let someone finish a system and decide it didn't work, by completing ALL grades, ALL the work, and an honest attempt at performing the Great Work.

 

[Roma]

what is the one and only source of the parasites?

In the West there are two main theories of physical disease:

• germ theory
• terrain theory

The germ theory says that there are nasty bugs (parasites) and with the right chemical/radiation someone can kill the bugs for you and you will be healthy. Your illness was not your fault.

The terrain theory says if you eat bad food, live in bad places, do bad work then you will get sick. Thus the illness parasites are the result of your poor behavior.

So are parasites/germs the cause or the symptom?

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Take a look at the Juul e-cig. Decent vape, decent e-cig, definitely safer than smoking a cigar or cigarette or even a pipe.
But something is flawed in the design, requiring a new Juul vape to be bought within 6-12 months of the last one. They rushed something. On top of that, it is way too expensive for someone on minimum wage to use.
Guess what class is the highest as far as the volume of smokers? Those who earn around minimum wage. Its an oppression system in a way.

But, now take a look at a Breeze e-cig. Almost the same price, Breeze delivers single draw (no charging required) 800 hits of nicotine and vape flavor.
It is now outselling the Juul - which wa the cats meow in 2015.

So because of that, it is now outselling the Juul, which was the cat meow in 2015 (the time where I had started studying the Golden Dawn and BOTA and FLO all at the same time. I see your points, and they are valid in a way, but things cannot be rushed (you must work as quickly, hardly smartly, and diligently immediately within any path). Time waits for no-one.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

In the West there are two main theories of physical disease:

• germ theory
• terrain theory

The germ theory says that there are nasty bugs (parasites) and with the right chemical/radiation someone can kill the bugs for you and you will be healthy. Your illness was not your fault.

The terrain theory says if you eat bad food, live in bad places, do bad work then you will get sick. Thus the illness parasites are the result of your poor behavior.

So are parasites/germs the cause or the symptom?

Good call.

Yes, some if not most magic systems are contaminated with parasites, the ones which we attract by what we do.
The actual source, no-one would really say, perhaps they didn't want to mention their poor habits.

The symptom obviously. If I touch a contaminated door handle and then rub my eye or nose, likely I would catch a cold or flu; both viral.
So I can't blame germs themselves, someone else didn't wash their hands and touched the door handle, allowing others (while obviously no cleaning occurred) to get sick. It was germ theory here.

The parasites, one of which I thought I saw one night, that my cat also noticed looked like a raccoon at first, but had spider (or something else) for its limbs. Quick as a cockroach and scrambled past me and outta my space. Or attached itself slipping into ether.

People we associate with can give us spiritual and physical parasites. Not sure which theory is the fault or cure there, probably terrain in this note.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Back on systems and time, another example (sorry for using brand names but had to make the point by using those examples and products) on systems and not rushing into things ...
Cooking.
I cook food Mon-Wed nights at a hotel. I plan for approximately 900 mouths. Ive ran out of food before because of a construction crew staying there. So what did I try to do to solve the issue? Raised the heat and didn't alter time. What happened as a result of that was a nearly burnt serving of three different food trays from the oven, that were not fully cooked. It was not intended, it was a side effect of the result of the procedure.
Now, if I lowered the temp or stayed at the same temp, but gave it more time, it would taste great.

The other three to four days a week I work at a greek gyro place. If you try to immediately carve and serve gyro meat, you will make the customer sick. Even though it slowly spins and roteates on the spit in front of the burners, it is still partially raw, thus it has to go on the flattop grill immediately and essentially sautéed on the flattop with oil until cooked and ready to serve. The other thing is, you have to carve gyro meat off the entire leg. This means you're making about six gyro servings. So I have to pay attention to volume, customer statistical wants in order to keep up with things which I usually excel at that point.

Again - if we rush things, we will most likely get a spoiled result. I understand some people have no choice but the LHP, due to calls to a nonexistent protector in times of crisis, continually, pressuring them until they crack. Many flip out and have a psychotic episode or two.

One final example - Enochian.
Dee and Kelley rushed things. Kelly was very new with this class of spirits, but monarchs and clients above them kept pressuring speed of the result.
It produced results. It also contaminated entirely clean magical systems by one use of it. All that glitters isn't necessarily gold.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

So, parasites plaguing me, is the result of trying to rush into things like The Fool, rather than a logical step by step assured as intended results of The Magician. Temperance and the Moon are kind of an example of the polarity of rushing into things or being moderate into things.
This can only be handled by effective banishing methods.

Sigh. The spirits - most of them - I dont believe are necessarily pure evil. But there are a few, and Ive been in the presence of their aura before or confronted through a channeler a couple times. Not wise. Not at all. But they do have powers which can help us achieve our aims.

Question - what are our aims at a physical, etheric, astral, mental (lower and upper) and causal planes at a certain vibration level we wish to reach? It can only be done through self mastery ..... and .... yep, yessiree, time. But the fruit .. the result ... the product of the aims .. are you aiming low or aiming high?

 

[Roma]

Arguably germs and parasites are there to clean up the mess left by other entities such as humans.

So as we learn to control and refine our physical, emotional and mental bodies we leave less mess and attract fewer parasites

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

That for some reason reminded me of the book The World Without Us.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I think ... in terms of refinement ... particularly with everyones favorite topic, money ....

There are two ways we can start from, one is denial, one is acceptance. Acceptance doesn't necessarily mean you are like Trump, it means that you accept money is a tool to be wisely used and kept up with in order to result in satisfaction of the result.
Denial doesn't mean you want to be an alms beggar, it means you realize the inherent lack of value in most money, and redirect your efforts at producing money vs producing cross-transferrable services and skills.

Some of us have it easy in life money wise, some of us struggle, some of us feel left behind. So. The choice becomes clear, do I want to acquire money or acquire transferrable services and skills that will in turn become channels for money to flow through?

Example, when on the LHP, Foras mentioned to me to look into herbs and stones in terms of clairvoyance and other powers. I am still into herbs and rocks, but from the RHP and for a different intent. I actually want to know these Kingdoms and be in harmony with them. I recently have accepted the idea of spirits living inside these stones and plants. I have accepted the idea that elementals and devas do exist. Not only fire elemental, but all elementals, including Fae and other Spirit related elementals.

Now I want to study them to know them, to get bulk herbs and flowers and such with anointed olive oil to produce an immediate sense of relief from ailments. To produce a mass quantity I could sell for say, 20-50 per dropper bottle. Yes, I believe in the power of herbs and stones that much, that they can help remove or control that which assaults us. Thenthere is also incense which can be made by myself and a book or two.

Or I take a class, such as soap making. Integrate herbs into it, or integrate Hoodoo into it, such as soap bars like Road Opener, Good Luck, etc.

Then we have the higher kingdoms and the seven or more heavens to aim for. Lets say we get to know the animal kingdom so well, you take veterinary assistant classes locally and work at a zoo as a feeder or whatnot. This too can be a channel for wealth or skills that are transferrable across several industries.

That is how one becomes the Lord of Wealth, that dude seated in the RW Ten of Pentacles petting the dog. And it was done by their own initiative, persistence or whatnot.