Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Control of Thought.

This what is expected within Yesod.
It should be expected in Malkuth. But I digress.

Back to all esoteric plans, including planning a sequence of rituals to a small set of expectations, done faithfully every day during certain hours for no less than two weeks.

If money was no consideration. How would your life transform? What would you hold valuable? What would you shed including self limiting beliefs?

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

You have and recognize your kingdom, or the need for your kingdom.
Only three paths were open to you. The Judgement/Shin, The World/Tav, and The Moon/Qoph.
Now in Yesod, one remains, the other three replaced the two plus one above.
Almost as a shape or operation of a windmill.
You also recognize something, anything must lie beyond or simultaneously beside us; something that exists as then physical passes away.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Now your Kingdom needs a Foundation.

What can this possibly mean, as the Kingdom lies within us and without us Simultaneously, Concurrently.

 

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Now back to our regularly scheduled program of a noob learning digital Logic while daydreaming of saving the world from disaster.

 

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Fine. No more questions from me.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

It is now 8 pm.
It doesn't fucking matter however, as I have nothing planned until I start my new job Tuesday night.

So, since I'm being too loud, silence from me to you, made with love.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Back to my study and practice of "The Golden Dawn" and "Kaballah, Magic and the Great Work of Self Transformation".

Meltdown==interpreted by others not as a point of frustration, but invitation to criticism instead. Got it. Keep me in mind when you get frustrated then buddy

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

My fears have held me as a Neophyte for the order of Light.
My fears also keep me from service to the Darkness, mostly because the world plas.ke for a patsy, I can only imagine what the denizens of the underworld want to lay on my narrow shoulders.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

No more.
I work through Christopher's book as long as it takes me, but by four months from now + the Gates of Janus call forth a Zelator, which will be me. Six months later I go for Practicus. Six months later Philosophus, six months later Portal.

Did it work? Only I get to find out.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

True, I've spent ten years being a Neophyte, much to the delight of my critics.

What the critics didn't realize was a joint complex of mine - fear of failure as well as fear of success.

So, my critics, I hand this seatless pogo stick to you to ride off into the sunset with.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Now, found my checkers travel game.
Now to create glyphs per Christopher's book, to simulate the Neophyte temple initiation.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

The more things change, the more they remain the same.
Example: my bed was slowly to be taken over by a mound of books, art supplies and crap. I cleaned it up only to return to a prior state.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I won't be posting about my rituals, including pictures. I mean. Most won't care or take it serious at all. And why should they? They aren't the central figure in the midst of my Qlippoth of a life.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

If money we're not an option....

1. Critics of me will have to reveal the skeletons in their closet. Or stfu forever regarding my life.
2. I would have a job that fits my life experience and skills, iow no more shit job for me.
3. I would he open to love and relationships with a kind, Conscientious, adult female who is looking for the exact same qualities I search for.
4. I would have quality of life and only converse with those who do.
5. I would take every college course under the sun possible.
6. I would become a fellow meetup addict.
7. I would try to save the world given what I can contribute with.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Let's create glyphs of the officers and their weapons.

 

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Maybe I will go for broke, and do: Opening by Watchtower, followed by each initiation, then Closing by Watchtower.
And do this nonstop for six months.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

In hindsight, I should have taken the temple invite more serious by getting a Toronto hotel near the lodge and a flight there and back, then avoiding the accident that occurred, in order to not miss the initiation that fateful day.

 

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Okay, controlling the thought, we create glyphs for the board. Can't have a game without pieces.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Card of the day: XIX The Sun.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

The Sun, or Sol, is in service to the light.
This is why sun worship angers an old god, roving his right to be worshipped turned instead away from the creator to creation.
Yet who's to say?
The sun gives life to this planet, and sustains it.
It can harm, kill. Or Heal.