Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

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Resh, the path for the card of the Sun, given my month of Yesod has come, is one of four paths to Yesod, and has the value of 200. Resh, spelled by letter would have a different value - Resh. Yod, Shin. 510.

 

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Cardboard pieces torn off a box top, hey. Us poor folk has to dos Magick somehow. Yessum.

 

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The empty chessboard. The temple to be.

 

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Magick for me will not go away as the universe hands me tools to work with.

Case in point...it gave me a straight natural pine wand today.

This is my third wand, the first is curved like a bow, the second shaped like a dowsing stick.

This one is perfectly straight.

 

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The glyphs are in position on the tiled floor. Now I just need to draw their symbols on the glyphs.
Then move the pieces as I am led about the temple during the rite.

 

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My phone is about dead. I will give this until midnight, then finish adorations and midnight Neophyte Formula.

As soon as the Neophyte work is natural to me and all the work has been done, including records in offline journals, then I will commence with Zelator. Then six months with each grade.

Perhaps if I'd realized like I do now, that teachers are far and few between, I'd relied heavily on them and cherished them.

Then again, who cares besides me?
Right. On with arts and crafts time in my looney bin.

 

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Was doing fine until the mystic circumambulation takes place. Continuing beside the distractions.

 

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Done with Neophyte initiation via words acts and props.

 

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I've successfully worked through the 0=0 initiation.

I've taken a lot of undue criticism today, though my wording didn't help.

Meditation is my new best friend, as tonight pointed out to me.

It's been a day. After HF meditation, doing adorations and going to bed.

 

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Then more a forum changes, the same the members remain or so it seems.

Guess im a man without a forum if it stays course like today.

 

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Now that I'm doing the arts and crafts stuff, the next portion are the writing assignments.
Then exercises, which according to the book are a month each.
This is why, granted maybe not a decade, but it does take up to a year per grade, based on the candidate need, the order need, and life and the Great Work.

 

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As a note to critics: You don't nor ever have had, my Sum Bonnum of a life.

 

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Too bad I'm not posting pics, you should've seen the before and after.
The after isn't pristine by any means, but more organized and neat then before.
Wand on altar. Most books inside book cabinet. Dresser neatened, ancestral plate on book cabinet top to side.
Closet neatened. Floor neatened.
It will never be pristine without the following:
1. A decent paid job I can stand to work for.
2. Furniture of my choosing.
3. My own place.
4. A laundry service and massive clothes donation.


5. No more horse crap.

 

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I went outside, smoked a cigar and thought F these people and their opinion of me.
Then I thought about how Magick could bridge the gap between mud and solid ground, at least by authoring a book on magick.
Then I thought about my life. Most couldn't last a day in my shoes. I know I don't have the worst. I've never had the best, and my life has been a constant barrage of being dragged back down into the crab bucket. So it could be better.
I'm committing to my own words. 100 pp of introductions, followed by 874 pp of core text.
Yeah. All former browsers of the GD read the 974pp cover to cover. Working it. Yep, positively.

 

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Two pp in. Bedtime. I've been up since 6am yesterday.

 

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Laughed off every site. People can be really snobby.
Whatever. No more ideas from me.

 

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The resident "experts" picked on Quora for my questions are real jokesters I'm sure. Nobody could do what they do and be that much of a snob, at least one would hope.
They are correct, I am in fact under-educated.

 

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Anyway, load off my shoulders, since this idiotic dummy couldn't provide a greater idea to combat a grave issue for the human race.
Sucks to be the intellectuals solving our crisis

 

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And it also means, except in terms of a game, the convoluted mess of what I was trying to get into code is of no use to anyone im sure.
That also means I don't have to rack my brain trying to figure out material way out of my league.
I guess this also means I can trash all the code I wrote in three days time.

 

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It wasn't completely worthless however.
One, I tried when others wouldn't or couldn't.
Two, I got pretty far compared to my education and skill.
Three, shame nobody could see it.
Four, I learned to write better C, and am learning Python as well.
Five, I programmed to the best of my knowledge of the C language, with no header libraries on the Linux system ?
Six, I learned Python intuitively through the trial and error session with the interpreter.
So bite me resident "experts". And the world at large holding power of employment above my head.