Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

[Öwnchef]

The Star.
The Chariot.

Things that belong together got apart. Chariot becomes the Hierophant. Star goes to Justice.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

What a messed up day. I guess I met my reality check. Complete with a two hour walk home.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Feeling meh. No work done for the day.
Not much sleep and a long long walk home in the dark last night didn't help.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Heaven and Hell are equally on my shit list, since both have attacked everything I loved about life.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Got up. Did adorations noon to noon, LRVH with grade signs.
Did Lord of the Universe in west then east.
Did LBRP with neophyte signs.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Did afternoon to evening adorations. Will shortly do evening to evening adorations.
The QC, LRP, and MP all need drastic repetitive times in order to be sound imo.
Visualization and depression do not pair well.
Stayed home today but have to work tomorrow morning.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

The fan usually stops tilted or downward apex pentagram. It's currently apex up.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Early bird today. Need to leave at 5:30 to catch the 6am bus to get to work by 7.
Then off at 3pm..I can dig that schedule.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Had a long intricate dream but lost all detail upon waking or seconds after waking.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

In thinking about those who wonder why The Golden Dawn:
1. There is no shortcut to Adept or Magus that is beneficial in the long run.
2. It is a complete magical system with many subtle details to investigate.
3. For a self initiate, it will take years to work through but has several entry points to power.
4. It names certain beings and angels to work through and with.
5. The choice is yours as always.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Continuing card for the day, I believe yesterday was a wash, so Vaw it is, V The Hierophant. Taurus. Hearing sound of keys and bells. The Magus of the Eternal Gods.
0..V = 15=6
Every day is a new beginning.
0 No Thing. Ox. Fool. Aleph. 1
1 Beginning. House. Magician. Beth. 2
2 Duplication. Camel. High Priestess 3
3 Multiplication. Door. Empress 4
5 Order, square. Window. Emperor. 5
6 Mediation. Nail. Hierophant. 6

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Messed up the numbering system above. Correct:
3 multiplication
4 order
5 mediation
6 beauty
Started writing out goals, but lost the original idea of writing out steps for each goal. Since they were immediate goals anyway. I will let that category slide. The rest have subgoal steps however.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Starting morning routine as must leave for work soon.
Did adorations Midnight to morning per Liber Resh Vel Helios, with grade signs and sing of silence.
Did Qaballistic Cross Ritual with neophyte signs.
Did Lesser Ritual of the Pentagram, Earth invoking with neophyte signs.
Did Middle Pillar Ritual.
Did ten point TA adoration.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Concerning Tarot and Bible:
1 Kings 5 is interesting.
Ps 25: 6 is mediation.
Ps 33: 6 speaks on The Magus of the Eternal Gods (Hierophant)
Ps 34: 6 is compassion from the LORD.
Ps.38: 6 is a need for the Hierophant to address.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

On the bus to work, read from the Siddur a blessing and daily prayer. May use 9t to learn Biblical Hebrew.
Having an existential and midlife crisis rolled into one, coming to ugly truths about me and why I'm talked about and laughed at is only partly ignorance on the part of the other parties.. but also hinting at the ugly truths.
Nobody likes to face certain truths about themselves, but you have to face and accept them to be relieved.
Old. Alone. Handsomeness a bit less.
Uneducated. Poor.
Yes. Ugly truths about myself.
But the Builders of the Adytum and Fraternity of the Hidden Light has, per Paul Foster Case, the Truth about the Self. Which contradicts my truths about myself.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I get attention, would be nice to be confident to make it more memorable.
However, this is reality, and this reality is not for everyone.
So, small improvement over time.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Reading chapter 5 of both First Kings and revelation, as well as select Psalms.
Will do evening ritual shortly .. still working on daily Novena rituals.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I think an issue beyond how to sift through and prioritize displayed rituals, certain oils, incense and colored candles I just have no current way to get.
So, decorate a colored altar with white tealight candles and spell candles.
To help navigate through this chaos back to the light of the divine and celestial forces and forms. That's what would be helpful in the results of this project.
I get it. Some people are simply mean, cruel, sadistic, fascistic and tyrannical. Overly competetive and cocky. The kind that have families with deep pockets and good lawyers. Still won't deter me once I get going.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Adorations per Liber Resh Vel Helios:
E Adoration with grade sign
S Adoration with grade sign
W Adoration with grade sign
N Neophyte signs
E Lord of the Universe adoration with neophyte signs
E Qaballistic Cross Ritual
E Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram
E Qaballistic Cross Ritual
W Middle Pillar Ritual
W Lord of the Universe adoration with neophyte signs
Ten point TA adoration with neophyte signs.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Trying heart flame meditation for once in a month or two, and visualization is for crap.
Was difficult with Neophyte Formula.

In the words of Kraig to paraphrase, quit worrying about "seeing" it, and just do it!

So did both to best of ability.